Feeling Different - Not Thinking About Girls

[kashmir]

The last few days something weird has come over me, and I like it. I've hardly really given much thought to girls. I some how just stopped caring. I really noticed it today. Sometimes when I'm swarmed with girls and guys showing affection, I feel kinda bad that I don't have that, but today I noticed that I didn't feel that way at all.

 

This could be due to a number of things. I got some new science books to read and have been really into them. I also started to poke fun at everything around me and realize that a lot of the emotions that appear to be happening between couples are riddled with drama and falseness. I mean, I'd still like to have success with girls, but it's a different outlook now. I really don't care if I talk to a girl or not. I don't worry about time running out for me. I just tell myself, "Eh, something good will come my way soon. I'll know it when I see it." This is what it means to not go out looking for love, but let it come to you.

 

There's still one girl I think about, but I've known her for far too long to be worried over her in the sense that I want her romantically. I might make a seperate thread about what to do with her eventually, but right now she's off my mind, and I'm just enjoying my time alone.