shesmiles Posted December 14, 2008 Posted December 14, 2008 he hasn't responded to my letter I sent to him via facebook. I'm kinda glad, I like it better this way for some reason because atleast I know that he got it and it's been read. I really need to get over this, today I was feeling a bit better after I sent the letter, I really don't want a response ... I've decided I don't want him back as much as I miss him, it will never ever be the same and it'll never be as good as it is in my memories. I've gained weight, from missing him and not having my motivation to do anything, I need to loose this and a bit more but it's hard because it's winter. Our actual " 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY " that should be very exciting, I hope I can get through that day. Christmas is coming up, My first christmas without him in three years... I hope it goes well !
frd150 Posted December 14, 2008 Posted December 14, 2008 Perhaps the lack of a response is a response eh? I came to realie that we cannot force people to be,act,of love us the way we would want them to. We just have to accept whats in front of us no matter how hard and I myself know how hard that is to do. For me it was almost three years and an engagement ring. Its funny but I lost like 25 pounds after she left me. I spent more time spinning my wheels then then I was taking care of myself. Its been a while since ...a long while but one day I decided enough was enough and I joined a gym and decided to be more social with my friends and family. I guess the cool part is Im alot more fit ( gained 30 pounds and down two waist sizes from pre breakup) and I have a good group of friends. My point is that you have to just say f-it im not gonna let this win, Im gonna take control and stop spinning my wheels over all the unknowns that I cannot control. Heck to this day I wonder about stuff but I end up telling myself that its no longer in my control. It will click. BTW my first Christmas was sorta a bummer but this one is gonna be alot different. Just make sure you have alot of people to distract you.
Author shesmiles Posted December 15, 2008 Author Posted December 15, 2008 Thank you for everything and the advice . I will be perfectly fine, alot has come into my head and i've realised things that make perfect sense. I stopped loving him along time ago, and I'm just afraid of change and starting all over again with a new man so I'm wanting him back . I will be fine, and he will be too. I don't ever want to be with him again.
inulg Posted December 15, 2008 Posted December 15, 2008 BTW my first Christmas was sorta a bummer but this one is gonna be alot different. Just make sure you have alot of people to distract you. i was thinking of saving some money and not flying home for christmas... now after breaking NC and reading your post.... i'm starting to worry :'(
frd150 Posted December 15, 2008 Posted December 15, 2008 Funny you should mentoion flying home...thats exactly what I did and it actually took the some of the sting away. Im not sure If your ex lives in your home town or not but mine does not so the further away the better.
frd150 Posted December 15, 2008 Posted December 15, 2008 Thank you for everything and the advice . I will be perfectly fine, alot has come into my head and i've realised things that make perfect sense. I stopped loving him along time ago, and I'm just afraid of change and starting all over again with a new man so I'm wanting him back . I will be fine, and he will be too. I don't ever want to be with him again. Alot of people are afraid of change hence why people stay in dead end relationships. Its all about stepping out of your comfort zone and part of the fun in at the begining of a relationship is "starting all over again".
Author shesmiles Posted December 15, 2008 Author Posted December 15, 2008 Yeah , Well I really hope he never comes back to me ! I don't ever want to hear from him ... I've realised I deserve so much more and he doesn't deserve the attention I've been giving him, I hate him for breaking my heart and making me insecure. But I'm fine now, I never held as much of a grudge as I should have when I found out about his affairs . I guess I'm just to much of a forgiving person to do so .
Geishawhelk Posted December 15, 2008 Posted December 15, 2008 Thank you for everything and the advice . I will be perfectly fine, alot has come into my head and i've realised things that make perfect sense. I stopped loving him along time ago, and I'm just afraid of change and starting all over again with a new man so I'm wanting him back . I will be fine, and he will be too. I don't ever want to be with him again. Still going to tell your children and grandchildren all about him...? You can see what I meant, huh?
Author shesmiles Posted December 15, 2008 Author Posted December 15, 2008 LOL , the only way i'll mention him to my grandkids is if i'm giving them advice as in not to make bad choices in life !! thanks for everything .
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