It's time to get out of here. I need some words of wisdom.

[zilverenvlinder]

After a tumultuous 2.5 year relationship, and 1 and a half years of living together...and by tumultuous I mean him cheating on me, which really changed the whole relationship, obviously... I think it's time to get the hell out of here.

 

The part that shakes me up though, is he is pretty much the only friend I have. I think this whole process would be a lot easier if I still had my old best friend, who was my friend before she started dating my boyfriend's best friend, but now I can't talk to her because she's just awful and drives me up a wall. So I really don't have anyone to help me through this.

 

Also, he and I pretty much work together, which is going to make 40 hours of my week a living hell until I find a new job.

 

I think I can afford to get my own apartment...I know I can... but I am so afraid of the sheer loneliness of it, after living with someone and being with them every night for so long. ESPECIALLY when I have no friends to turn to when I get sad.

 

Has anyone just moved out on their own, all by themselves, with few people to turn to, and been okay?

 

I have such a hard time even imagining that anyone will ever care about me enough to want to be with me again, especially after being cheated on. And even so, if I did find someone else, how would I know they wouldn't be as awful to me as he was?

 

I'm sooo scared.

[DSM-IV Tom]

I'll be ya friend.

 

And if you want some words of wisdom, go to youtube and listen to the song "One Headlight". Brilliant.

 

"There's got to be something better than in the Middle"