SoStupid Posted December 8, 2008 Posted December 8, 2008 I am beginning to break down.. the tough exterior is crumbling... I can't stand these feelings anymore.. I dont know what to do with myself. I have no one to talk to, to help me with these emotions.. I feel like i could scream till my lungs explode. I am so depressed and sad inside, Everyone telling me just be positive dont look at things that way!! EASIER SAID THEN DONE PPL!!!! I dont know who to turn to anymore. The one friend i do have just tells me to leave him you will be much better.. oh if it were only that easy. :mad:Why me why do i always have feelings i cant deal with.. why am i always depressed, why can i never sleep.. WHY DO I BLAME EVERYTHING ON MYSELF..????????????
Surfer Dude Posted December 9, 2008 Posted December 9, 2008 People have been giving you good advice, it's up to you to try and apply it. If you're feeling unable to do so, why don't you try to seek help from a professional? Some of those people are real experts and could help you in many ways. You're walking a minefield here, don't let these things become chronic and ruin your health. Seek out help and actively try to improve your situation, as difficult as that may sound.
Author SoStupid Posted December 9, 2008 Author Posted December 9, 2008 People have been giving you good advice, it's up to you to try and apply it. If you're feeling unable to do so, why don't you try to seek help from a professional? Some of those people are real experts and could help you in many ways. You're walking a minefield here, don't let these things become chronic and ruin your health. Seek out help and actively try to improve your situation, as difficult as that may sound. Thank you for your input Surfer Dude.. I think i just might look into and seek some good professional help. I have done this once before and felt like it didn't help only because i sat there for an hour and talked my head off to realize that i still felt the same and this guy(professional) just listen to me for a whole hour with nothing to input. Kind of set me back and made me realize that these people cant give me some magical remidy.. I must find happiness myself.. I just dont know how anymore.. I guess i will give this another try.. Maybe i just need to find a better person to talk to or something ugh..
TeaAbraham Posted December 9, 2008 Posted December 9, 2008 I was blaming everything else on myself too. I was blaming myself for everything that went wrong. After a while though I realized it wasn't my fault anymore. I did some things wrong, and I regret that. But after things broke down I was the one who was willing to fix things. Who went out and made sure I would never make those mistakes again. It took time, but I had a complete and total realization, and I wouldn't do those things again. So then it wasn't my fault anymore. Because I was willing to change, and I did. It became her fault. I realized all of the things she did to me, all of the things that were so bad about her. I was willing to fix things. I was able to free myself of that guilt because I am not that same person anymore, and now I see all of the sh*t she has done and put me through. You've got to stop blaming yourself. Realizing how it was not your fault is so liberating. It can't just be your fault anyway. It takes two. Yea, if you need to get professional advice do it, it is very helpful. I am at the university so I was able to get some help for free, but it's definitely worth it. Just talking about it with them. They really know what they're doing. I know with the lady I talked to it was most helpful just questioning myself. I had to be completely honest with myself because there was this other person there who was trying to help me. I couldn't lie to myself. I had to open up all of those hurtful things that I didn't want to accept. In the end I ended up giving myself advice, but I wouldn't have been able to if the professional wasn't there. Hope maybe you get a better one if you try this time!
Author SoStupid Posted December 9, 2008 Author Posted December 9, 2008 I was blaming everything else on myself too. I was blaming myself for everything that went wrong. After a while though I realized it wasn't my fault anymore. I did some things wrong, and I regret that. But after things broke down I was the one who was willing to fix things. Who went out and made sure I would never make those mistakes again. It took time, but I had a complete and total realization, and I wouldn't do those things again. So then it wasn't my fault anymore. Because I was willing to change, and I did. It became her fault. I realized all of the things she did to me, all of the things that were so bad about her. I was willing to fix things. I was able to free myself of that guilt because I am not that same person anymore, and now I see all of the sh*t she has done and put me through. You've got to stop blaming yourself. Realizing how it was not your fault is so liberating. It can't just be your fault anyway. It takes two. Yea, if you need to get professional advice do it, it is very helpful. I am at the university so I was able to get some help for free, but it's definitely worth it. Just talking about it with them. They really know what they're doing. I know with the lady I talked to it was most helpful just questioning myself. I had to be completely honest with myself because there was this other person there who was trying to help me. I couldn't lie to myself. I had to open up all of those hurtful things that I didn't want to accept. In the end I ended up giving myself advice, but I wouldn't have been able to if the professional wasn't there. Hope maybe you get a better one if you try this time! Thank you very much Tea.. Its nice to know that your not the only one that feels this way in the world. "I had to be completely honest with myself because there was this other person there who was trying to help me. I couldn't lie to myself. I had to open up all of those hurtful things that I didn't want to accept." I think this is most of my problem. I hate hearing things that i do wrong(well i dont really know anyone that does) but i need to face them head on.. deal with them and move forward. Not continue living the same thing day after day.. The input really helps guys thank you. I truely feel alittle better now.
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