lonelygurl Posted December 4, 2008 Posted December 4, 2008 It has been only been two days now since i got my note that he couldn't handle our both our depressions and he wished he was stronger and then signed it with love. I am so angry with myself that I allowed myself him a second change and again he broke my heart. Our relationship followed the same path as the first time. He is extremely needed and really emotionally unavailable and it seemed the more I tried the less he did. It has been hard for him with my depression lately, but I still tried as best I could. Then I got physically ill for a little while and really saw how he wasn't trying. I suggested things to do and he wasn't interested. Then the last couple of nights before my note he spend time with me relaxing close on the couch watching TV and talking and kissing. Now today I had to call him about getting passewords for information to access stuff on the computers that he took care of that I had a company come up and take a look at. I could tell by the tone in his voice it was like he wanted more. I said the other day on here that he left all his stuff. The first time he left all his stuff and played the wishy washy game for a month. Then said he had to leave for good....he had a new g/f. Then six months later came calling. After talking to him today I am breaking down and feeling weak. I miss him and still love him. I feel so sick to my stomach. How could he do this a second time...rip my heart out. Why did I allow him to do it. Why am I breaking down and being weak. It is taking everything in me to not contact him and ask him why is he doing this again. The phone call has set me off balance. It is so hard when someone you love for seven years does this to you and leaves you wondering.
Gremio Posted December 4, 2008 Posted December 4, 2008 lonelygurl, I understand how you feel. When I was younger I always said to myself and others to never get back together once you break up. It will never work as you broke up for a reason, and it will happen again. As I grew already, and I hate to admit because I am a perfectionist, I didn't listen to myself. I split with a girlfriend, and we wanted it to work, so we got back together. It was never the same and we broke up again.
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