beautifulearth83 Posted December 4, 2008 Posted December 4, 2008 I'm sorry. I'm sure nobody wants to listen to me whine, but I'm really overwhelmed right now. I'm having a lot of trouble managing my problems. I know that everybody has problems, so I feel a bit selfish coming on here and doing this. I just want to be happy like anyone else, and right now I'm convinced that my happiness depends on resolving all my deep dark issues one by one. I also wonder if it is possible that I'm focusing on my troubles too much. I'm 25 years old. I should be having fun, working hard, building a happy life for myself. But I feel like a wreck. I wonder if others have a point in their life where they decide to finally review what's really going on inside. I wonder if I'll ever be able to catch up with my emotions. I just want to be a healthy, happy, good person. I want stability and security and I want to work for it on my own. I just feel like I'm dealing with so many emotions, feelings, fears at the same time. I don't know what I deserve. I have trouble making decisions. I'm just plain exhausted from this. I'm looking online researching all my issues. Trying to find answers. I'm thinking I may need to see a therapist again and that scares me. It's been so long. I think about going on medication again, but that scares me, because I feel like they suppress my emotions and make me feel worse in the long run (I'm mentioned this before on this forum). I don't know what I want to do for a job and I don't know where I want to live. (I currently live away from home). These things are much easier to decide when I have a sense of self, but I don't feel that way right now. It just seems like such a delicate thing. I could be doing so great and making progress and then I lose grip. Thanks if you have read this. I just don't know what to do. Sometimes I feel like I have all the answers and other times I just feel lost.
Author beautifulearth83 Posted December 5, 2008 Author Posted December 5, 2008 I really liked your quote, "I wonder if others have a point in their life where they decide to finally review what's really going on inside." It's excellent that you're doing this because unfortunately, many people never do have that point. Thank You Derek. I sometimes wonder if exploring these things will help me grow and become a happier person or not. I suppose I have faith that it will if I'm still doing it. I understand what they mean by ignorance is bliss. Being naive I still had troubles but I let them go and it was easier to distract myself. Now when I deal with something and I'm convinced that it's the truth, I have trouble giving it up. Give it some time, try different things, and put a LOT of thought into it. It'll work itself out. Every now and then we do lose ourselves. Don't worry, you'll find your ground again! I will and I hope so. Thank you so much again.
Nubemeister Posted December 6, 2008 Posted December 6, 2008 I am in the same boat as yourself at the moment. I am also 25 and I feel at a complete loss. The good thing though that just like yourself Ive started to analyze why and how all of this is coming about. I feel like im 2325243525 years old instead of 25. I only hope we can get ourselves to a place where things are "normal". So your not the only one, but we can make it:)
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