4givrnt4gtr Posted December 3, 2008 Posted December 3, 2008 Is it just me or we all just usually end up falling in love with the worst possible person? And thats when even better alternatives are possible? Please help me understand what is going on inside me at the moment cuz i dont get it and its driving me up the wall. Ok so this guy...ive wrote about him a few times. We've been friends for AGES. We roughhoused often just cuz, but i never EVER felt any attraction for him back then. Fastforward to last summer. Ish hit the fan with my bf, I broke it off and my friend moved back to our town. After hanging out with him a few times, I ended up having feelings for him even though i denied them even to myself until very recently. (We made out as well, almost hooked up but before anything came out of that I went back with my bf). Im newly single again and I cant stop thinking about my friend GRRRR Now why that is bad...He is cocky, goodlooking but cocky, and I hate that. On top of that, since we were very close friends before I know how superficial he can be, how his girlfriends have all been models or almost models, how he is so critical and how flirtatious he is. I also know he cheated on his current girlfriend (then right after went to tell her and she took him back). I also know that after we made out and I went back to my bf, he almost hooked up with a girl that used to be my friend, then came and told me all about it bassically...he's just bad news all around. He's an awesome friend though, and I miss him (We havent talk because my now ex bf knew what happened between us and was uncomfortable with me talking to my friend, i tried contacting again after the break up but he wont budge...he's really mad that I let him go for my bf). Anyway my point is....I can SEE logically he isnt what i want in a man. But then, as I said I know how good of a PERSON he is. He's always been there for me ALWAYS had my back, even when other people didnt. It just makes it hideously hard to not want something more than a friendship with him if he ever decides to come back. I dont know. On top of that there is this other guy who by anyones standards is awesome...but i just dont feel it...mainly cuz I cant stop thinking about my friend... Why do we always want the bad boys???
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