Author spookie Posted December 4, 2008 Author Posted December 4, 2008 Also.... All this talk about can I handle it, and do I value my job. I know that I can't, and I really, really do. I mean, let's start with the fact that getting into a relationship always changes me. My priorities shift, at least until I grow disillusioned and end it. I still have that princessy looking-for-someone-to-save-me complex. I don't think it's compatible with a workplace romance. Plus I'm jealous, possessive, obsessive, and don't take kindly to criticism of any kind. I'm not saying I'm not dateable (though just a few months ago, that too was true), but bringing all my issues to the only stable part of my life seems..... highly unwise. So, TBF.... thanks for your blessing, but I probably won't go for it. Not yet, at least. I was getting ahead of myself when I saw an opportunity present itself. Today, though, I'm not even sure I read the signs right. He didn't say one word to me today. So my plan is what it should have been all along. Focus on the job, pass exams, do more stuff that makes me a better person and brings me closer to accomplishing the things that will allow me to die happy.
Author spookie Posted December 6, 2008 Author Posted December 6, 2008 Smart! Thanks. Now I just need to avoid accidentally dating someone else because I am bored and lonely. This has always been hard for me.
Nemo Posted December 7, 2008 Posted December 7, 2008 Focus on the job, pass exams, do more stuff that makes me a better person and brings me closer to accomplishing the things that will allow me to die happy. Smart! I'm thinking more along the lines of "Dumb!" I mean, opportunities to engage in true and immersive love don't come around every day you know!? Do you want to end up like johan? Or maybe you would like johan up your end. I know I would. Work and exams are just things you do while you're waiting for love to strike. Life without a lover is empty and meaningless - no matter how much you would like to convince yourself otherwise. Lusting after a particular achievement for several months or years may seem like it is fulfilling, but one day you will look back and regret the sacrifices you made. Love is all you need, and all you need is love. It's the meaning of life. And the reason life is worth living. I pity the fool who thinks otherwise.
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