cbabbs0129 Posted November 27, 2008 Posted November 27, 2008 First, I would like to thank you for your opinions and your help and taking the time to help me. I started talking to an awesome girl in the summer and everything was perfect, we talked all the time we made each other laugh and I was happier then ever. Then, towards the end of the summer she told me that she needed to tell me a secret and I said okay lets hear it and she told me that she didnt want me too judge her differently. so the secret was that she had this really ****ty boyfriend and that she cheated on him with her best friend. I freaked out because I asked her if she had regret it and would she do it again. She told me that she would do it again if she was not with or was talking to someone. That just scared me to death and I told her I did not think that I could deal with that because I did not want to ruin a friendship. So we did not talk for like two weeks and I was a little bummed out but I wanted to avoid the jealously and arguments for the both of us! So after about two weeks I had some friends over and they were mutual friends and the subject got brought up and one of my friends asked if I still had feelings for her and I said yes but the whole thing just worried me. My friend told me that you can not let some ones past get in the way of your feelings. So I gave in and I called her and we talked and she told me that she did not think they were best friends and that she was not going to talk him as much and I told her once again that I did not want to ruin a friendship but at the same time I did not want to be done that way. So everything went back to normal for a couple of months and she was awesome and happy and I was happy but she never seemed to open up but I figured that would just take time. Then, it seemed as if we just started going different ways she did not want to talk as much, she did not seem happy and when I asked if she was happy she got defensive and just asked why I had to ask if she was happy, her best friend started texting her more and at first I did not like it but I cared about her feelings to so I just let it go but when she started acting this way I let my jealousy known and it seemed like I got jealous about everything! Then, about two weeks ago she said that she needed her space and that she just wanted to be single and at first I did not want to take a break I was selfish but once I thought about things I told her that I understood and that if she feels that way then it is this best thing for us. So that was on a thursday and we were suppose to go to the movies on that monday so we did not talk all weekend and I called her on sunday to see if she still wanted to go to the movies and she said sure I think we can go as friends and I said cool and I knew that I still wanted to be with her but we went to the movies and I did not do anything out of the normal I was acting as if we were just friends and right after the previews she grabbed my hand and we kissed which seemed like our first kiss again and I liked it, so everything was normal for a couple of days and then about a week ago she text me and was being very short but I just thought she was busy and needed some space so I just did not think anything of it and then she sent a text that said I do not think we should sleep together anymore if I want to be single I need to feel single and I said that I understood and I asked her if she thought it would be best if we did not talk and she said I do but I do not think we should. I am a strong person and I have only cared about two people in my 21 years of life, she is one of them. but for the first couple of days all I did was beg and try to show her that I cared and then I did not talk to her for a couple of days and I just happen to look on her facebook and I seen her flirting with a guy that in those two weeks that I told her I could not do it they were talking and she told me that she could have had him but she choose me. Just seeing that really got to me and it all came back and I once again found myself calling her, asking her how she could flirt with him and if she was trying to make me jealous! So I did not talk to her for a couple more days but I could not stop thinking about everything and wondering if it is all my fault and thinking if there was anything to do and I knew the right thing was to give her her space and not call. but for me the right thing and the hardest thing are the same! So I called her just to say hey how you been and she was being very short so we got off the phone and she text me and said sorry I was being shady I just think its to soon to talk its hard enough as it is and I agreed but then I could not stop thinking about things again and I text her and asked if she would give me another chance and she said that it is not there for her but I am hard headed and I think that she just mad when she says these things . I am crazy about this girl and I would like to know if there is anyway possible I could get her back? Please be honest and straight forward with me please and I thank you for taking the time to understand how I feel and thank you for your help!
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