Jamez123 Posted November 22, 2008 Posted November 22, 2008 Why has it happened to me. A year of complete happiness, no problems with us, then OH F**K, i begin to suffer from serious depression in the last two months causing me to become someone else who i didn't want to be. So i get dumped because of it a couple of months back. I told my ex yesterday about it all, but she doesn't believe me, she said she doesn't care and that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore because i'm annoying. Okay, i've asked her back maybe one too many times and i can udnerstnad how she's annoyed. But she says to me 'i don't want you back and i never will' as if i did something terribly wrong when i ****ing didn't at all. Two months prior to the split, she was so in love with me, she wanted to be with me all the time, she said she missed me when she wasn't with me and stuff. and now it's basically the complete opposite. I want her back but i want to move on, i want her to know i'm not like that at all normally. how the **** can i do that if i do NC with her? No chance, she'll just remember me for how i unfortunately became in the last two months. What the **** do i do, seriously? Forgetting her and moving on is too ****ing hard, due to my depression i messed something so pure and special up, forever? i don't ****ing know. Why do i deserve this ****. i might aswell jump off a ****ing bridge. What's the point in ever falling in love, sure it makes us happy but eventually it kills us all, i wish i was incapable of falling in love but it clings to me like a parasite which i can't get rid of.
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