SelfCentered Posted November 20, 2008 Posted November 20, 2008 It's been an odd few days for me. There's been times when I've got very depressed and the ex has creeped into my head on more than one occasion. Nothing new in that respect. But all in all, I know I'm doing okay. I think it would help if I typed out why, just just to put it out there. We need to do what we can at the times like this to feel good about ourselves, even if it's just making lists. 1) I find myself longing for her...But no, not for her, for someone in general. Yeah, I miss intimacy. That's what's killing me. And the thought that she might be having it and not me. Why does she deserve it? Course I have no way of knowing this, that's why I went NC. I'm going to assume that she isn't. For the good of my sanity. But yeah, even though it's bad that I have been feeling sadness, it's a good thing that I know I would be happy with anyone at the moment, not just her. Least I know I'm definately moving on. It's actually reasuring in a funny depressing way. 2) 8 weeks into the breakup. I've done well, i've been strong and my University work has not suffered. I was afraid I would slip. 3) I'm in the middle of arranging a holiday with my friends next summer. Not sure if I would have done that had I been with her. 4) I am seriously considering doing some volunteer work abroad when I graduate. Again, if I hadn't had such a bad time as of late I don't think I would have ever had the motivation to think about such a thing. So that's only four reasons but that's better than none. Really starting to feel good about myself again. Things are well and truly looking up.
EmperorR Posted November 20, 2008 Posted November 20, 2008 That's great, I know that planning helps because it gives you something to look forward to, im planning a trip next year, and it has me really excited etc. Keep it up
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