Da_1_n_OnlyN3na Posted November 19, 2008 Posted November 19, 2008 I have ben in a relationship on and off for 2 years. Every time it gets harder and every time i expect more and receive less from my boyfriend. There is a one sure thing ...every time we break up we always get back. This might be a sign that maybe there is something that we both look for that we have that another person does not. This doesn't neccesarily make me happy though, i don't know what i feel for my bf anymore. I don't get the urge to or want to kiss him, if he asks for a goodbye kiss i feel weird and instead of butterflies i get this knot in my throat sort of like anger. We haven't made out in a while probably like a little more than a month, we have only pecked. I don't like the fact of being away from him.i get sad and go through depression when me and him are having problems or when we break up and i always take him back. Maybe its because of everything he has put me through. i dont trust him at all, he annoys me most of the time and i hate talking to him on the phone (specially text)but i get mad when he doesn't text me or call me because i want to know what he is doing. When im with him he gets on his phone a lot and is alway s texting and i get jealous and mad because i think he is talkin to girls. I care and hate him at the same time. i read somewhere on google that if i wasn't in love with my boyfriend i wouldn't stick around and would not have an excuse to break up with him, so does that mean me and him still love each other or are we jus used to being toguether? Any thoughts comments or advice would help...thank you!
Author Da_1_n_OnlyN3na Posted November 20, 2008 Author Posted November 20, 2008 Any thoughts or comments???
lofi_tokyo Posted November 20, 2008 Posted November 20, 2008 Okay well... It sounds to me like maybe you're in highschool? At that age, its pretty common to break up/get back together/break up get back together. I think you'll come to realize eventually that the guy is not all he's cracked up to be. As you get older, you'll get sick and tired of this kind of drama. Its emotional breaking up, no matter what end you're on! If its hurting you to keep doing this, stop. Otherwise, you're young... do what ya want. ;p Gotta learn life's lessons somehow.
Author Da_1_n_OnlyN3na Posted November 22, 2008 Author Posted November 22, 2008 Thank you for your comment...Im in my first year of college i just graduated this year from high school. and yes this breaking up and getting back does hurt me a lot..i am exhausted this guy has put me through a lot and i have cried rivers in this relationship i have given so much and have never recied nothing out of it and i admit its my fault because i always take him back and i put myself in this situation...when i think i can handle it and i need to break it off i regret it afterwards. It is maybe because i am attached to him and i don't know, i feel like something is missing in my life when im not with him. But i know that i am hurting myself by staying in this relationship.i just don't know how to get out of it. My coworker went through some hard relationships while she was younger and she told me that i will get tired of this one day and i will get to the point where i won't take no more shyt and that i will break it off and never go back. She has ben single for almost 10 years now. I want to get to that point because i don't want to car anymore.
Lishy Posted November 23, 2008 Posted November 23, 2008 I think you go back out of loneliness and also fear of being alone. He is what you know. If you loved him you would want to kiss him!
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