Nikki Sahagin Posted November 17, 2008 Posted November 17, 2008 Ever since I was small I have ALWAYS felt i've had something missing. This big hole, this huge void within me...that seemingly can never be filled. A moment of happiness just disapears into this void. I've always been a huge worrier...I would worry months in advance about a dentists appointment, I used to worry about school - I used to worry about things that were groundless. I seem to have always had very intense feelings and a mind that runs too fast and the two things together are a deadly combination that cause me to exhaust myself without even needing to do any exercise. If my mind was a body, it would be the biggest body builder you ever saw in your life... Anyway this void...this feeling that I do just have something missing was picked up on by an astrologer I went to once. Without having any knowledge of me as a person, she told me I had a natural wound in myself. Now I realise that whatever gives me comfort at the time I put my ALL into because I feel that this thing completes the void. Currently this 'thing' is my boyfriend. At first being loved by someone and wanted and needed by them gave me power and made me feel whole and complete. But now I just constantly worry. What if it goes away...and that void comes back. I know it's not really the relationship making me whole...it's some feeling of security and acceptance that comes with it. But i'm frightened that in losing that I lose that feeling of being wanted, loved, needed - and it seems these 3 things are the only 3 things that can make me feel WHOLE and get rid of the void. I don't know if anyone else ever feels this. Not that they have a void when they lose something but just that there's always been a void. I just almost need to be needed to feel full as a person. Any advice?
Geishawhelk Posted November 17, 2008 Posted November 17, 2008 I'm not being funny, but - Have you considered visiting a healer or a Reiki specialist to get this 'void' filled? I'm serious.
Author Nikki Sahagin Posted November 17, 2008 Author Posted November 17, 2008 Could you elaborate please Geisha?
quankanne Posted November 17, 2008 Posted November 17, 2008 "hole in my life," an old, old police song that seems to sum it up ~ There’s something missing from my life Cuts me open like a knife It leaves me vulnerable I hate this disease I shake like an incurable God help me, please Oh, there’s a hole in my life you've tried astrology, but have you also looked at other means of spirituality? Some people find a faith belief helps center them because it helps define what they do/don't believe in, thus giving definition to their lives.
Geishawhelk Posted November 17, 2008 Posted November 17, 2008 Ok. According to some traditions and schools of thought, everyone has Auras. These are multi-layered, and apparently, each aura deals with a different psychological/spiritual aspect of our psyche. One of these could be damaged. So you need to find an appropriate healer who could effect a repair. I wouldn't necessarily go for the first treatment or therapist you meet, or come across. You need to find someone who would have empathy with you. Intuitive Shiatsu (which is something I studied) would also help with this. But I'm in the UK.
Author Nikki Sahagin Posted November 18, 2008 Author Posted November 18, 2008 I'm also in the UK. I would be open to it. The therapist i've seen is very much into spirituality. She said she could detect 'blocks' in peoples chakra's and she could take the block away. I always felt I had a block in my throat? Whatever that could mean and sometimes in my stomach. So I would consider these as options.
quankanne Posted November 18, 2008 Posted November 18, 2008 those blocks could very well be psychological ... which, if treated spiritually, can be undone, it all works hand in hand, IMO.
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