should i see him before he leaves or not?

[Lizzyb6938]

ok well many might have read my story. dated bf for 2.5 years, we broke up (him initiated) because hes going away, straight into stressful medicine first year. we see once another to discuss a couple of days later, he wants to get back together, loves me, wanted to be the man of my dreams, says he doesn't want to let me go. we speak later in the week and he suggests i come to a group dinner with him and his friends before he leaves for a holiday in three days.

 

so basically ended up writing him a message saying 'hey sorry not gonna make it tonight, might be too awkward with everyone there anyways. have a great night' he wrote back saying 'hey pumpkin, how was work? are you sure about that? it might be weird to everyone else, but then i'm weird too lol.' so i wrote back saying 'yeah that's true, um alright, i'll come over around 6ish.' so i have a shower, get changed and he writes me a message saying 'hey pumpkin, so good news, alot more girls in the group are coming than i thought (he thought it might be all boys), do you think it will be fine or still awkward?' so i'm like f*** this and i call him to see what the f is going on (shouldn't have called, i know, i know).

 

we speak normally, he seems chatty and his normal nice self. said that he loved me ( i hesistated in saying it back, but did) and i said 'so what's going on tonight.' he said i 'don't know are you coming.' i said 'well you seemed a bit ambivalent.' so he said 'well i've been thinking about it for the last hour and i don't know maybe it would be a bit strange with everyone whispering and trying to figure out whats sort of going on.' I think basically what happened is that he checked with his friends to see who was coming and their like 'oh Lizzy is coming, what's going on?'

 

he told me maybe lunch on monday before he leaves would be better. he said 'i just want the last time that i see you before i leave to be like last Monday which was wonderful rather than spending the whole night with everyone else wondering what's going on.' i said well 'i don't know if i can do monday, i'm busy.' he's like 'are you sure?' i said 'yeah.' he asked 'are you sure you can't just fit it in?' i said 'well i really don't know.' he's like ok. i said 'tonights better for me, but i know it will be awkward.' he said yeah. so i said well 'monday i finish at 11:30.' he said 'well that's fine we'll have brunch, where do you want to go?' i said 'i don't mind.' he said 'well lets have a think, i'll speak to you tomorrow.'

 

i don't know if i should go or not. honestly i kind of enfuriated at his ambivalence but then i did think it would be awkward too. in fact during the week i was saying no way am i going, his friends would just wonder what is going on. so i totally agree with him but i'm still frustrated. should i go on monday? he seemed pretty keen but i just don't know.