alwayssme Posted November 13, 2008 Posted November 13, 2008 just out of curiousity.. what is a usual day in your guys lives? i don't even think this is about my ex anymore... more that i want my life back.. or create a new one but it's so hard to start from scratch... having to rebuild something that took YEARS! only for it all to fall apart And now being back at square one... Thank God I have school and some things to keep me busy but still...i wonder when that day will come that i will feel complete again...right now im okay i guess...much better than i was a month ago... how is everybody coping? anyone ever feel empty? its this bad weather again...always gets me to think...lol
lofi_tokyo Posted November 13, 2008 Posted November 13, 2008 I can definitely relate to how you're feeling, Always. I don't really want my ex back. At best I'm annoyed that things are really over, no second chances. I've accepted the breakup, and that doesn't mean I'm not annoyed. Blah! I have moment when I feel empty for sure. Its really weird! I feel like the most mundane, average, unwantable person ever. I just walk through life without everyone wanting to hold onto me. Thats how I feel sometimes anyways. But! I'm trying not to take myself so seriously. There a tons of students on campus who much like myself just live in the library doing homework, go home, hang out with their roomates/family, go to sleep, rinse and repeat. Also, I just went to Toronto! I did something cool! Still though, I find myself wishing my life was more spectacular. I miss being in love. Its actually the weirdest feeling ever not loving someone with all my heart! It blows my mind! Hahahaha Good news is I can totally tell each day I'm getting better at being single. Like, I can actually see myself getting more comfortable with who I am now. That doesn't mean I don't get lonely or feel ****ty sometimes, but overall, its all good. We've got eachother here on LS!
lofi_tokyo Posted November 13, 2008 Posted November 13, 2008 Oh! And to answer your first question: A day in the life of Tokyo: -7:30 Get up -8:15 ride to campus with my little bro and my mom (bro's in school too, mom works there) -8:45 arrive on campus -9:00-9:50 French Class -9:50-10:50 Hang out with one of my best friends -11:00-11:50 Old English Class -12:00-12:50 20th Century Drama Class -1:00-1:50 Aboriginal Literature class From 2pm onwards the day is up in the air. Generally, since I am swamped with school, I bum around for about an hour, eating, reading the school newspaper, maybe meeting up with a friend, then at 3pm I go to the library and live there until I get bored. Sometimes I'll meet up with a friend later in the evening, sometimes I don't. Sometimes I meet up with my brother and hobo around campus, sometimes I don't. Generally theres some sort of minor hang out in the evening, but sometimes I just work! Then I go shower, go to bed, sleep, rinse and repeat!
Just_dealin_with_it Posted November 14, 2008 Posted November 14, 2008 hey alwaysme I feel empty sometimes too. It's kinda strange because I'm feeling better and better as time goes on, but I still have moments where I'll be busy doing something and all of a sudden I think of me ex, and boom that old lonesome feeling takes me by surprise. It usually doesn't happen when I'm hanging with friends, and having a good time, but as a grad student I spend a lot of time alone studying in the library or at home and it's easy to let my mind wander and think about her. What I try to do is remember that although I do feel lonely at times, I am not back to square one. I have learned a lot from each relationship I have been in. This square one is not the same as the previous one, or the one before that one. In time your confidence will grow from this relationship you were in and the pain you're enduring now. How we react and breakthrough these situations make us so much better down the road. In time you'll see, you'll be a stronger, happier, more confident you!
Peter_pan Posted November 14, 2008 Posted November 14, 2008 good post, well for me i dont do anything. thats right a complete bum, so feeling empty is a given got fired from my job, no school, no girlfriend, nadda lol so my life time scale is this sleep 3am wake up 3pm, eat call mates, go out, talk about holidays and how good our snowboard trip is going to be, talk about life go in sleep at 3am .... good news is, i have FINALLY chosen something i really want to study at uni. and thats architecture i really want to have an impact on how society will live when i am gone, and i want my designs to have impact and meaning in peoples lives. for me this is achievable and i want to do it.
Crazy.S Posted November 14, 2008 Posted November 14, 2008 i feel super empty. my life is a total emptiness. i drifted away from my closest friends and the friends we shared, now barely talks to me. i just graduated college a couple months ago and i can't find a job yet. so i am busy at home doing nothing really besides wasting time and it makes me feel very powerless. nights are the worse, because it's so quiet i start thinking about the past and it sucks. i can't wait to get my life moving again. i hope to have someone special by valentines day, because that was my old anniversary and i don't think i can take it being alone. like someone said, 2009 is the year edit: Peter_pan you can do it. I graduated from architecture school btw.
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