SevenStars Posted November 12, 2008 Posted November 12, 2008 So where should I begin... About a year ago I met this guy, a guy I had no interest on. But I would just talk to him about anything, made fun of him and heard him out. It was just very innocent, very friendly. I was going through a break up and he was humping everything on site and he would talk to me about it. I didn't care, I would ask questions about his sex life and so on. I was always trying to figure him out... Like what was up with him and women cause he wouldn't commit to this one girl he was talking to. I never at that point had any feelings for him. He asked me out for valwntines day just cause it was v-day. I told him that i had plans and that was that. I ended up sleeping with an old ex and i told him about it he wanted to know details and i told him like he has told me with his sexual escapades. He got so mad that i slept with someone that he didnt talk to me for a month. Anyway he came around and we went back to us being friends and being dumb wuth each other. He joked around with me talked about his life, everything was great. It kept going on like this for 6 months... We talked every weekday and we would always talked about our weekends. I thought I had this great guy friend that I could talk to about everything and anything. Now this guy is the complete opposite of who I am. I am in college, I have a career, I live on my own and I'm very goal oriented. This guy doesn't go to school, lives with family and he does work but also has a job that we should call illegal. When he told me he deals it scared me like hell. But I told myself he is just a friend no big deal. I didn't judge him. So his b-day came around and he decided to tell me how he felt about me! He told me he liked me a lot and he thought about me all the time, that he was jealous of other ppl I dated/slept with. He freaked me out again. I still didn't like him, I was traveling for work and I just missed him like crazy!! I liked him at this point and I told him and we were so cool about it. Nothing happened though, he wouldn't do anything about it nor did I. My b-day came and still nothing happened. So about 3-4 weeks ago I was thinking about him and I remember we got into a fight and I realized that I love him. We fight often. And I txt him that I love him and he said that he loves me too but didn't want to scare me away. I couldn't believe this, it was great. He also told me i was his soulmate, that he would like to marry me someday. Now come today nothing has happened. We aren't dating, we are not in a relationship even though he tells me how much he wants to be with me and he says I'm his. He won't be with me cause I have a busy schedule also because he needs attention and doesn't believe I will give him that. We have fought over stupid things, he gets mad at me everyday for things I say or do. He's hurt me by the way he's been with me before and now I feel that I have to leave the guy I love. Because I'm pretty sure he is going to break my heart. He won't commit till I have more time, he doesn't want me dating other ppl. But he does everything he wants. And this is breaking my heart that I have to leave him because he says I'm his but we aren't in a relationship, because I can't trust him. I don't know what to do! I dont know how can I keep going on like this!
Geishawhelk Posted November 12, 2008 Posted November 12, 2008 You do know what to do. You just said what you're going to do. Trouble is, it will hurt. But you know what? The pain will heal, and the scar will completely fade. Unless, of course, you keep going backwards in the healing process by continuously picking at the scab.........
Vince Black Posted November 12, 2008 Posted November 12, 2008 "Because I'm pretty sure he is going to break my heart." I can almost guarantee that!
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