I Could Snap

[johan]

At least sometimes I think I could. Overall I'm just getting more and more irritable and impatient. On the inside. On the outside I'm pretty much the same, maybe a bit more outspoken and... impatient. Not unfriendly though. Inside though, I wouldn't think twice about knocking some heads together. People walking in the store like zombies. Chewing too loudly. Unwrapping candy... ennndlesslyyyyy.... Driving too slowly in front of me, or too close behind me. Or just stupidly. Bitching, demanding customer talking over me. Sneezing. Coughing. Talking. Breathing. Existing.

 

I feel a bit burnt out. But I don't care. I just want the world to adjust around me and relieve this endless burden I feel from having to tolerate it. I want to go to bed early and sleep until I can't anymore.

 

Hey, all you annoying people! Will you all please just stop f*cking annoying me??? Get the hell away from me and out of my life.

[allina]

I'm pretty much like that all the time. I get annoyed at the woman with the 6 noisy kids running around the store (b*tch don't produce more than you can handle), the person in line at the grocery store demanding a price check on a can of beans (I know the times are tough but you're wasting my freakin' time for 5 cents!) The person on the train loudly chewing gum (you sound and look like a cow) the person I see sneezing and not covering their mouth (eww filthy, no manners) the guy making a lewd comment to me (stfu you sound even dumber than you look)

 

Sometimes I feel like I need to lighten up, and I try to, but I just don't have the patience

 

You however Johan, you're too cute to be so angry.

[burning 4 revenge]

Have you checked your blood pressure recently? Ive been feeling a lot of internal stress like Im edgey and could snap under on the right circumstances and found my blood pressure was 150/100

 

Also do you get a lot of headaches?

[johan]

How about people who start up other conversations during meetings. They should die, I'd say. A long slow painful death. Administered by me. But I'll stop killing them when they knock it off.

 

I know how it is, Allina. You know all this just comes from dissatisfaction with ourselves. Some kind of core belief. We're just as stupid as everyone else if we allow it to own our lives.

 

But until I figure it out, or exhaust it, I'm ok with despising each and every person I encounter. It's episodic. It comes with the cold weather and the burdensome holidays.

 

I have to admit though, that there are some people who make me feel happy. The girl at the bookstore makes me feel good every time I see her. I always smile for her. We have a project manager who is sweet and nice, and I never feel any animosity towards her. Although I admit sometimes I cringe when she does what I do: say just enough to reveal the fool within. It would be hypocritical of me to advise her not to.

[johan]

Have you checked your blood pressure recently? Ive been feeling a lot of internal stress like Im edgey and could snap under on the right circumstances and found my blood pressure was 150/100

 

Also do you get a lot of headaches?

 

No headaches, unless I drink crappy wine. My blood pressure was ok a few months ago.

 

I think it's a life imbalance. There is nothing soft or warm. Everything is cold, technical, and edgy.

[Nemo]

At least sometimes I think I could. Overall I'm just getting more and more irritable and impatient. On the inside. On the outside I'm pretty much the same, maybe a bit more outspoken and... impatient. Not unfriendly though. Inside though, I wouldn't think twice about knocking some heads together. People walking in the store like zombies. Chewing too loudly. Unwrapping candy... ennndlesslyyyyy.... Driving too slowly in front of me, or too close behind me. Or just stupidly. Bitching, demanding customer talking over me. Sneezing. Coughing. Talking. Breathing. Existing.

 

I feel a bit burnt out. But I don't care. I just want the world to adjust around me and relieve this endless burden I feel from having to tolerate it. I want to go to bed early and sleep until I can't anymore.

 

Hey, all you annoying people! Will you all please just stop f*cking annoying me??? Get the hell away from me and out of my life.

You need to get laid, dude.

[allina]

Have you checked your blood pressure recently? Ive been feeling a lot of internal stress like Im edgey and could snap under on the right circumstances and found my blood pressure was 150/100

 

Also do you get a lot of headaches?

 

My blood pressure is really low and I only get headaches if I'm really hungover. I think I'm just really intolerant of others.

 

How about people who start up other conversations during meetings. They should die, I'd say. A long slow painful death. Administered by me. But I'll stop killing them when they knock it off.

 

I know how it is, Allina. You know all this just comes from dissatisfaction with ourselves. Some kind of core belief. We're just as stupid as everyone else if we allow it to own our lives.

 

But until I figure it out, or exhaust it, I'm ok with despising each and every person I encounter. It's episodic. It comes with the cold weather and the burdensome holidays.

 

I have to admit though, that there are some people who make me feel happy. The girl at the bookstore makes me feel good every time I see her. I always smile for her. We have a project manager who is sweet and nice, and I never feel any animosity towards her. Although I admit sometimes I cringe when she does what I do: say just enough to reveal the fool within. It would be hypocritical of me to advise her not to.

 

I think my issue is that I'm too satisfied with myself and sometimes lack compassion, especially towards stupid people

 

Your examples are sweet. Especially the book store girl part

 

It's funny, I never get irritated with my coworkers, with the exception of maybe one guy, but he's ok. I never snap at my SO. I guess it's strangers I don't like?

[norajane]

Time for a vacation?

[amaysngrace]

The cold weather sucks. You wake up it's cold. In the afternoon it's cold. You go to bed and it's even colder.

 

It gets dark at 5:00 now. You can't do anything in the afternoon anymore or it gets dark on what you're doing. And then you can't see.

 

Thanksgiving is coming and I don't want the big feast. Heck right now I'd take a balanced meal. But I don't have the food in my fridge and I don't have enough money to get more.

 

Christmas is coming. I don't know how I'm going to swing it this year. I think I need to go into the city so I can score some big lead shopping bags to loot the stores once it gets busy, if it ever gets busy.

 

Maybe I will just scope my neighborhood. I am home all day while they go to work. I can case each house pretty easily.

 

Yeah...that's my plan.

[burning 4 revenge]

The cold weather sucks. You wake up it's cold. In the afternoon it's cold. You go to bed and it's even colder.

 

It gets dark at 5:00 now. You can't do anything in the afternoon anymore or it gets dark on what you're doing. And then you can't see.

 

Thanksgiving is coming and I don't want the big feast. Heck right now I'd take a balanced meal. But I don't have the food in my fridge and I don't have enough money to get more.

 

Christmas is coming. I don't know how I'm going to swing it this year. I think I need to go into the city so I can score some big lead shopping bags to loot the stores once it gets busy, if it ever gets busy.

 

Maybe I will just scope my neighborhood. I am home all day while they go to work. I can case each house pretty easily.

 

Yeah...that's my plan.

Is your income sensitive to fluctuations in the economy?

[amaysngrace]

Is your income sensitive to fluctuations in the economy?

 

Isn't that a little personal?

 

I thought you were going to give me some pointers on how to rob my neighbors....

[DollWelch]

I think it's a life imbalance.

Yes. Sounds like something is missing. Hmm. Something. Something new and special.

 

Perhaps, you are lacking a surprise of some sort from your life. A pleasant distraction from your usual routine/life. Then, just then, you might be able to get your mind off of those snappy thoughts.

 

Have you tried engaging in something, well, something "Happy"?

[burning 4 revenge]

Isn't that a little personal?

well its vague. at least i thought it was

[johan]

The cold weather sucks. You wake up it's cold. In the afternoon it's cold. You go to bed and it's even colder.

 

It gets dark at 5:00 now. You can't do anything in the afternoon anymore or it gets dark on what you're doing. And then you can't see.

 

Thanksgiving is coming and I don't want the big feast. Heck right now I'd take a balanced meal. But I don't have the food in my fridge and I don't have enough money to get more.

 

Christmas is coming. I don't know how I'm going to swing it this year. I think I need to go into the city so I can score some big lead shopping bags to loot the stores once it gets busy, if it ever gets busy.

 

Maybe I will just scope my neighborhood. I am home all day while they go to work. I can case each house pretty easily.

 

Yeah...that's my plan.

 

Do you make a lot of money? How much?

[johan]

Yes. Sounds like something is missing. Hmm. Something. Something new and special.

 

Perhaps, you are lacking a surprise of some sort from your life. A pleasant distraction from your usual routine/life. Then, just then, you might be able to get your mind off of those snappy thoughts.

 

Have you tried engaging in something, well, something "Happy"?

 

Hm. Not sure what that could be. Any suggestions?

[amaysngrace]

There's too much bad mojo floating around. It feels like a ringing in your ears.

 

Wait...I think I need a Q-tip....

[johan]

Time for a vacation?

 

Probably. It probably has been for several months. Or maybe a couple of years. I've been maxed out on vacation time for a few months now. If I wanted, I could justify them comping me two or three days. I could take 5 straight weeks off of work, plus a few more days for "floating holidays".

 

I'm not a vacation kind of guy.

[norajane]

Probably. It probably has been for several months. Or maybe a couple of years. I've been maxed out on vacation time for a few months now. If I wanted, I could justify them comping me two or three days. I could take 5 straight weeks off of work, plus a few more days for "floating holidays".

 

I'm not a vacation kind of guy.

 

That might have something to do with your state of mind.

 

What do you have against R&R?

[burning 4 revenge]

Probably. It probably has been for several months. Or maybe a couple of years. I've been maxed out on vacation time for a few months now. If I wanted, I could justify them comping me two or three days. I could take 5 straight weeks off of work, plus a few more days for "floating holidays".

 

I'm not a vacation kind of guy.

I want to visit the monastery of Saint Meinrad's sometime in December if youre interested

[amaysngrace]

I'm not a vacation kind of guy.

 

Me either. I'm always afraid those dumb bitches are stealing out of the safe in my room.

 

I can't even enjoy myself when I go out to play.

[Citizen Erased]

I want to visit the monastery of Saint Meinrad's sometime in December if youre interested

 

Road trip!

[Nemo]

This thread is still going? Weird. Oh well, if you missed the definitive post, you can always scroll back to what I wrote. Case closed.

[Citizen Erased]

This thread is still going? Weird. Oh well, if you missed the definitive post, you can always scroll back to what I wrote. Case closed.

 

I doubt it is a matter of him just getting laid Nemo. And if it were I'm sure he could remedy that fairly quickly.

[Nemo]

I doubt it is a matter of him just getting laid Nemo. And if it were I'm sure he could remedy that fairly quickly.

Yes, I guess you're right. Maybe he's just bummed out from too many brutally passionate yet detached threesomes, and aching for a deep, emotional connection.

[burning 4 revenge]

 

Thats where Im going if you want to get away from the world