sacg Posted November 11, 2008 Posted November 11, 2008 I've posted a few times since my split in July. I've been through most emotions over and over again, mostly down to staying in contact with her. And tonight Im feelin really ****, total dispair. She left me and lied, she got with someone pretty quick, within weeks, (someone she knew of before she left???) and that hurt a whole lot more, and still lied. Yet still I hurt and yearn for her, envy about her, for whatever reason, talking crying, asking, losing diginity. (not so much recently). Im not a weak person, why can i not let this "other" person just go, and it not affect me. Is it Love or infactuation or just somethng you cant have? The constant wondering whats she doing etc with him etc.....I know its mad, but I cant stop it. So now I want to get angry. I really do. Why would i not be with what she has done? Why am I not furious, saying, great shes gone, im better off, *** her and him? Why do i still miss her so badly, want her so badly and think i could be with her again and we'd be fine? Why does the obvious not hit you? Why dont i see her faults?? Im not a kid, im 39. But i think im losing it at times, just the constant thinking and anaysing.
EmperorR Posted November 11, 2008 Posted November 11, 2008 cut off all contact, stay nc I know it's hard but it's better than being treated like dirt disrespected and more hurt. I've been there my ex cheated on me kicked me to the curb and is with someone new already, nc has helped me gretly yes I still love the cheat and think of what she is doing Sometimes but everyday it's a bit less. Even though she did all these horrible things to you,hating the bitterness resentment will only prolong the healing
sultry33 Posted November 12, 2008 Posted November 12, 2008 I've posted a few times since my split in July. I've been through most emotions over and over again, mostly down to staying in contact with her. And tonight Im feelin really ****, total dispair. She left me and lied, she got with someone pretty quick, within weeks, (someone she knew of before she left???) and that hurt a whole lot more, and still lied. Yet still I hurt and yearn for her, envy about her, for whatever reason, talking crying, asking, losing diginity. (not so much recently). Im not a weak person, why can i not let this "other" person just go, and it not affect me. Is it Love or infactuation or just somethng you cant have? The constant wondering whats she doing etc with him etc.....I know its mad, but I cant stop it. So now I want to get angry. I really do. Why would i not be with what she has done? Why am I not furious, saying, great shes gone, im better off, *** her and him? Why do i still miss her so badly, want her so badly and think i could be with her again and we'd be fine? Why does the obvious not hit you? Why dont i see her faults?? Im not a kid, im 39. But i think im losing it at times, just the constant thinking and anaysing. nc nc ... honestly you are getting nothing from being in contact. ive been here i still cant get angry..i havent contacted him in over 3 months now yea it hurts but it will hurt alot more to hear about his new life with his new chick he probably say he doesnt love her like he does/did me but reality is its her he calls now is intimate with..takes to events we ran.. talks to my friends.. does all the things we did:sick: yea soul mate his words.. puke button needed if he trully loved me he would have not moved on to another just do as i do get busy.. dont analize.. and have fun feeling sad is a waste of your life hugs to you x
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