Eyeofthoth Posted November 13, 2008 Posted November 13, 2008 "It was worse than a knife through the heart. More along the lines of a jackhammer through the chest in slow motion . . ." So descriptive. When I heard those words coming out of his mouth . . . that he wasn't sure anymore, that he wanted a break. . . I could not believe how painful it was. I was completely unprepared. It felt as though I had been hit by a truck and broken every bone in my body. . . How could anyone do that to another person, a person they had been in love with, a person they had earlier that same day promised not to leave? It is just incredible. . .
Author ThomasX Posted November 13, 2008 Author Posted November 13, 2008 "It was worse than a knife through the heart. More along the lines of a jackhammer through the chest in slow motion . . ." So descriptive. When I heard those words coming out of his mouth . . . that he wasn't sure anymore, that he wanted a break. . . I could not believe how painful it was. I was completely unprepared. It felt as though I had been hit by a truck and broken every bone in my body. . . How could anyone do that to another person, a person they had been in love with, a person they had earlier that same day promised not to leave? It is just incredible. . . Hey don't give me too much credit lol I am trained in analogies and what not-- trained in writing. Because I write movies. But... in all seriousness. That's messed up you're going through what I am. I feel you big time. But hey-- whenever you feel alone, feel some strength-- because you have us all. And you've got me!
Angel1111 Posted November 13, 2008 Posted November 13, 2008 Thomas, I'm so sorry, sweetie. You seem like such a warm and caring person. I know you must feel like the rug has been completely pulled out from under your feet and never saw it coming. I know it feels like you'll never be the same, that your life and heart will never heal - but they will. I'm just so sorry this happened to you.
Author ThomasX Posted November 13, 2008 Author Posted November 13, 2008 Thomas, I'm so sorry, sweetie. You seem like such a warm and caring person. I know you must feel like the rug has been completely pulled out from under your feet and never saw it coming. I know it feels like you'll never be the same, that your life and heart will never heal - but they will. I'm just so sorry this happened to you. Aww thanks angel I appreciate your sympathies and outreaching towards me. You are a good person I feel better, you know. After reading a lot of these peoples stories and seeing their pain... mine really pales in comparison, ya know? I mean sure it hurts like hell but I'm not alone. So I'm happy to be here and help others. Glad others are willing to do the same for me. It really shows you and gives you faith in people. I'm happy here. When I'm alone, though... that's a different story. But I will persevere. We all will win.
Angel1111 Posted November 13, 2008 Posted November 13, 2008 Aww thanks angel I appreciate your sympathies and outreaching towards me. You are a good person I feel better, you know. After reading a lot of these peoples stories and seeing their pain... mine really pales in comparison, ya know? I mean sure it hurts like hell but I'm not alone. So I'm happy to be here and help others. Glad others are willing to do the same for me. It really shows you and gives you faith in people. I'm happy here. When I'm alone, though... that's a different story. But I will persevere. We all will win. I know. It's not 'one day at a time', it's more like 'one second at a time', 'one breath at a time'. Where each moment feels like an eternity and neverending. Well, yes, others have pain, too, but that doesn't dimenish what you're going through. But I agree it can help us put things into perspective. I lost someone very, very dear to me years ago and it took about 2 yrs to fully get over him. I never thought I'd feel whole again. From that point on, though, I knew that few things could ever touch my life again that I couldn't handle because I made it through that. That's how hard it was for me. But it caused me to draw on strength I didn't even know I had and, in some subtle ways, it changed who I was - for the better. I just want you to know that you have that strength, too, and that you will get through this and the sun will shine again. It will.
pushforward Posted November 14, 2008 Posted November 14, 2008 Yo, been keeping up with your blogs. You don't put on a front for self confidence because you have low self esteem. You have low self esteem and 0 confidence because you got rejected by somebody who in your eyes is valuable. Because this person of worth rejected you; you feel like crap. Plain and simple. Build yourself back up. Better and badder than ever. What you are going through is normal. Remember to never harm yourself or anybody else. Keep strict NC and you will be fine. You know you're a great guy. If she loved you, she'll be back one day. Keep it up! Do you best to stick to NC. I broke it many times and had my heart broken over and over. Take it from me. Learn from my mistakes. It's always easier said than done. I wish I didn't choose to learn the hard way.
illu5i0n Posted November 14, 2008 Posted November 14, 2008 by the description of that girl..it's like..the girl i lost too....cute...keeps a low profile...doesn't drink..doesn't smoke doesn't sleep around...but the girl i lost..has no self-confidence at all...divorced parents..and i think that alone causes many mental problems...deep inside... I've posted my story 2 days ago...if u want..go read and..if u can advice me :/ man...you are not alone...
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