lofi_tokyo Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 So I can't remember how long its been since I cried over my ex, probably a while. This morning I am flying out to Toronto to visit a friend. Every Remembrance Day weekend, I would visit my ex in Califorina and it was generally one of our better trips. So I decided to get out of town like always, but visit a friend instead. This is a ****ty ass morning though. I miss my ex, being in this airport reminds me of all the times I flew down to see him, and my friend won't be able to pick my up for the airport, I'm going to have to fend for myself until 5pm - I land there at noon. Her mom wanted me to bring some stuff over, and I said sure, but it was not until this morning, when I got the stuff, that I realized its a whole suitcase. So now I'll be tromping around Toronto, by myself, and I've never been there, with my stuff, and her stuff, all day. Ugh. Furthermore, I've cut my hair short, and I like it a lot. I know that it looks good, but I hate being reminded a lot of guys are going to judge me for cutting it. Thanks Kizik! Honestly. As if I did not already know, now he made me feel disgusting. So this morning, I felt weak and logged on LS to feel okay. Instead I feel grosser than ever and just want to go home but I'm at the airport and don't know what to do. I'm so so so broken right now. Ugh
EmperorR Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 We all have bad days, but soon you will have more good days than bad days, stay strong go out with your friend, there is alot to do in toronto to get your mind off stuff:)
Tony T Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 You can either head for the pitty party concourse at the Airport or you can put all this out of your mind, get a good book and make constructive use of your down time. Memories can be hell but they serve us NO purpose at all when they make us feel bad. Work as hard as you can at making yourself feel good on this trip (and everyday of your life). The past is simply over. It won't come back and shouldn't. Yeah, I know that's easy to say, but take it from somebody who's accumulated many nasty memories over a lifetime. While important when they happened, they are meaningless now...totally. What counts is RIGHT NOW! Right now, you are at the airport. Feel good about that. There are a lot of people who can't afford a bicycle and who won't ever even know what an airport looks like. Go get a joke book and read it. Piss on guys who don't like your short hair. Poop on people who ask you to bring them suitcases full of crap when you go see them. START DOING THINGS FOR YOU...AND STOP DOING THINGS ON ACCOUNT OF OTHER PEOPLE. If people get pissed at you for saying no to them, GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
foxh1234 Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 So I can't remember how long its been since I cried over my ex, probably a while. This morning I am flying out to Toronto to visit a friend. Every Remembrance Day weekend, I would visit my ex in Califorina and it was generally one of our better trips. So I decided to get out of town like always, but visit a friend instead. This is a ****ty ass morning though. I miss my ex, being in this airport reminds me of all the times I flew down to see him, and my friend won't be able to pick my up for the airport, I'm going to have to fend for myself until 5pm - I land there at noon. Her mom wanted me to bring some stuff over, and I said sure, but it was not until this morning, when I got the stuff, that I realized its a whole suitcase. So now I'll be tromping around Toronto, by myself, and I've never been there, with my stuff, and her stuff, all day. Ugh. Furthermore, I've cut my hair short, and I like it a lot. I know that it looks good, but I hate being reminded a lot of guys are going to judge me for cutting it. Thanks Kizik! Honestly. As if I did not already know, now he made me feel disgusting. So this morning, I felt weak and logged on LS to feel okay. Instead I feel grosser than ever and just want to go home but I'm at the airport and don't know what to do. I'm so so so broken right now. Ugh Hi TV, I agree with Tony, put alll that stuff out of your head and enjoy your trip to TO. You will only let go of the past when you stop thinking about it all the time. I have been there and it will get better for you when you let it. Have a great trip, forget all the other stuff and relax. Your hair looks beautiful, don't let other bring you down. Live for yourself and no one else. Have a great trip!!!
sunshinegirl Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 This is one of those moments to just get through. The tidal wave of emotions will settle down, sooner or later; in the meantime, try not to compound the upset by getting mad at yourself for being triggered. It's okay and perfectly normal... Don't forget though, you paid for most of your trips to see your ex! Don't over-romanticize the situation. He sat back and let you spend all the time and all the money seeing HIM. That's not cool... whatever happened to the guys who would be willing to walk 500 miles to be with you (a la The Proclaimers)? YOU did all the work and that sucks! He sucks! Now. Go have fun with your friend.
Ingenue Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 As sunshinegirl said, the emotions you're experiencing are normal. It's never as smooth as we'd like it to be, and you'll find yourself, as you do this morning, in that strange weepy emotional mood. The key is to just work through whatever it is you're feeling and understand that this feeling will not last forever. I'm just past my 4 month mark since I was dumped and I'm doing quite well considering. But I still have those occasional days when I feel lousy. Go to TO, enjoy yourself and have a great time with your friend. TO has a lot to offer and great things to see this weekend.
frd150 Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 Man, I hate airports. I have to travel here and there so I have to face this often. The last two ltr's that I had were with girls that liked to travel so It was not out of the ordinary to hop on a plane on short notice for a quick getaway. The other thing is that you have to see all the couples walking around probably doing the whole getaway thing. It just brings back memories. It gets worse on the plane:eek:. I guess My laptop and my ipod are my friends. I just focus on them. Books are great as well. Oh, and the ocassional cute girl thats alone;). Anyway, I ditto what Tony said. Ha, I tend to keep my copy of No More Mr. Nice guy in my bag...it comes in handy in airports.
alwayssme Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 i had that feeling...not just with airports but with so many places because my ex was almsot glued to me! we spent so much time together and it was hard to go to restaurants, movie theaters, clubs, airports, my school my job--because i had memories with him everywhere! BUT i just deal with it now. It still hits me sometimes but I tell myself "this will pass" and I just pray to God for the day I can be fully over him and meet somebody who will appreciate me! Hang in there Tokyo, and your hair looks pretty so you should feel good about that, not bad!
Author lofi_tokyo Posted November 8, 2008 Author Posted November 8, 2008 Thank you everyone for all the love an support. Honestly, all your replies have made me feel sooo much better. I'm in TO now, I explored the city a little bit (walked around for about two hours taking pictures), its kind of rainy though! I'm sitting in a coffee shop now doing homework... that is until my friend comes and rescues me! I'm really feeling a lot better. It was so weird, I landed in Toronto, and there was my MOM waiting for her flight home to Edmonton, at my gate!!! It was crazy! She hadn't seen my hair at that point so shes was super surprised. Also... all of you who are telling me that I need to live my life for myself? You are absolutely right, and yeah, I did sacrifice a lot for my ex, so why not just be happy now that I'm finally free? Thanks again everyone!
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