Star Gazer Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 Tonight is literally the first night where I haven't had something to do (a pre-planned, regularly scheduled event) since my grammy passed. I've been able to avoid really thinking about it for over a month for that reason. But tonight I can't help but think about it, and it's making me incredibly sad. In addition to that, I'm having an awkward week with the guy I'm dating. All of my friends are busy tonight, so my only options are things I'd do alone: gym, shopping, cleaning. I did get invited out to dinner by another guy, but I'm sick and emotional and I literally feel like I'd burst into tears at the dinner table (not to mention that I only want the guy I'm dating anyway). I'm ridiculously emotional and sad, and about to go spend a grip of cash at REI on a new ski outfit and skis, or the Laura Mercier counter...retail therapy, I suppose. Is keeping busy the only way to deal with emotional pain? I mean, really? If left alone and to my own devices, I'd literally just cry all night.
CaliGuy Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 Buy World of Warcraft, SG. You can take your aggressions out on "play" killing some ugly Horde 12 year olds. Works for me *hug*
garnet Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 I'm very sorry for your loss. Honestly, it sounds like being alone and thinking about it wouldn't be a bad thing at all. It sounds like you've been avoiding dealing with the pain all this time. As hard as it is, you need to face it as some point. You cannot continue to brush the feelings under the rug. Crying everything out can be an incredibly healthy thing sometimes, just as long as you don't continue to stay in that place.
Ronni_W Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 Is keeping busy the only way to deal with emotional pain? I mean, really? If left alone and to my own devices, I'd literally just cry all night. (((hugs))). A good, long cry isn't necessarily a bad thing -- those sad feelings need to come out some way, or will just get 'stuck' in your body. May even be surprised that there aren't as many tears as it feels like, right now. For some reason, the thought of writing a letter to your Grammy came into my mind. Catch her up on what's been going on for and with you, since her passing. The "problem" of course...you'll probably also need a box of tissues if you do do the letter thing. My sympathies on your loss, Star.
johan Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 Get an XBox and go online. TP and I will take turns shooting you. You might enjoy it, and we definitely will.
frd150 Posted November 8, 2008 Posted November 8, 2008 Hey Stargazer, Did it pass? I vote the x box and the drive thru headset. Yeah its dorky but your alone so who cares. On the Skis I recomend somthing with at least an 80mm waist, twin tip maybe.
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