Dane19 Posted November 4, 2008 Posted November 4, 2008 ok so here is day 10 of NC with my ex. basically my back story is that she wanted to end things and wanted to let me down softly by telling me that she just "wanted space to see if I was the ONE" Which I know is just BS for "I want to date other people" And I wasn't having any of that so I just basically told her that I knew that she didn't love me anymore and that I just wanted to end things. Anyways, here I am on day 10 of NC its been the hardest thing ever. She hasn't tries to contact me once and I've had some pretty rough days. Well, today was a good day. I finally started to stop feeling bad for myself and made the best of my day. Things were looking pretty good. Until I was on my way to the book store to see if they had the book No More Mr. Nice Guy since I've heard a lot of you recommend it. As I am merging onto a highway I see a familiar looking car. It's too late, I'm right behind her. I didn't know what to do because I was going pretty fast when I merged and I had to pass her... I know that she saw me and now I feel like I'm back at day 1. Especially since now I bet she thinks I'm stalking her or something since I ended up right behind her. Why did this have to happen! I was shaking so bad after I got out of my car at the book store. How could just seeing her car and know that shes inside it make me feel like this again? I was doing so well with NC and now this happens. Now I'm letting my mind wonder and think about what shes doing. I want to hear her voice so bad. This sucks. By the way, they didn't even have the book I was looking for.
lofi_tokyo Posted November 4, 2008 Posted November 4, 2008 Its okay to feel shaken up. I am mostly over my ex, but I saw a picture of him just recently - the first time I've seen him since about a month and a half ago, and it shook me to the core. Only for a moment, but SO much pain hit me. Yuck. Even remembering that moment of my day sucks now. You'll get over it and be strong again! Just keep up the NC, try not to think about her, and you'll get there.
Author Dane19 Posted November 4, 2008 Author Posted November 4, 2008 thanks, yeah the thing that sucks is that we live less then half a mile away, we hang around the same people and are bound to run into each other pretty often. I will stay strong though. Last time I saw her like this I was at a party and she was there too. i acted like nothing was wrong and didn't go up and talk to her at all. I could tell it hurt her bad and she tried to tell me that she was over me. I said that fine i understand and then she asked if I was over her. I said that I was not going to wait around for her. She started crying and later that night she tried to call me like 10 times in a row. She even called my room mate to let her in so that she could talk to me. She was pretty drunk so I knew if I did talk to her then no good would have come from it.
EmperorR Posted November 4, 2008 Posted November 4, 2008 Always happens, just when I was getting over my ex not caring etc., she text me on what would be our third anniversary, just on some hey incase you were getting better an dforgetting me let me bring you back to day 1.
BikerBeagle Posted November 4, 2008 Posted November 4, 2008 I've been on a couple of those "back to day 1" trips so far. They hit pretty hard, but as time goes on, you will be surprised how quickly you recover from them.
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