alwayssme Posted October 28, 2008 Posted October 28, 2008 Just need to vent... I'm at a point where i'm tired of being down and depressed. it's not something i can help but if there is anything i could do to not feel this way, i would. today the weather is very bad, it's raining and storming and it reminds me of the two years that me and my ex would be together under the covers on my couch watching tv it's getting cold and lonely. besides, him is not the only problem (although the biggest problem of course). my family is hardly at home and almost ALL of my friends are always busy with their boyfriends/girlfriends. i hang out with my ex occasionally and we have fun but yet we're just friends and never getting back. i guess right now, i just feel numb. things changed for me overnight (literally). it was unexpcted. i lost the one i love and i lost close friends. i find myself thrown out of my comfort zone completely. my school work is suffering and for some weird reason, it is very slow at my job right now so i have not been working for a little while. my point is not to complain "my life is miserable" blah blah...because i'm tired of complaining, i want to change things. i haven't been on my own in so long. i was always used to having a boyfriend and friends...and simply a life. Now i feel like i do nothing but go to school and go to work and stay at home watch tv. i miss my ex and i miss my friends, i just want my life back and that doesn't seem like it's going to happen. there is this other guy that i actually could be with...but now he got a girlfriend and i would never get in between that. basically i'm searching for an open door but it seems like whenever i find one, it shuts right in my face. Guys any advice? Would a vacation from all this be good for me? I want to be strong and do something that will make ME happy...i thought being in love was the best thing that ever happened to me, now it's the worst and i want out! i have realized that you cannot count on nobody but YOU for your happiness. i have beenbetrayed by so many people lately, that I'm just lost. *sigh* i hope everyone is coping with their situation! i'm trying too...
ioncebelieved Posted October 28, 2008 Posted October 28, 2008 Like I remarked on another thread, feels like Ground hog day the movie! In the sense Bill Murray keeps repeating the same day. Sorry you are feeling this way and it s not a good place. It is easy for me to say take each day at a time, but it seems the days repeat huh? It is very difficult to get out of the "funk", but It does get easier as the days turn into months. That may not be much because I am still in a stuck point too, but try and remain as positive as you can and talk to people you really trust. Wish you well!!!!!
Author alwayssme Posted October 28, 2008 Author Posted October 28, 2008 Like I remarked on another thread, feels like Ground hog day the movie! In the sense Bill Murray keeps repeating the same day. Sorry you are feeling this way and it s not a good place. It is easy for me to say take each day at a time, but it seems the days repeat huh? It is very difficult to get out of the "funk", but It does get easier as the days turn into months. That may not be much because I am still in a stuck point too, but try and remain as positive as you can and talk to people you really trust. Wish you well!!!!! Thank you! I appreciate anyone that's there for me through this tough time. I know it will pass but it sucks being right here right now. I can't wait for the day when I can look back at all this and say 'wow, I made it through one of the worst time of my life but now my life is better. I have a new life, good career, new friends." I know I need to make that happen though and it won't come on its own
ioncebelieved Posted October 28, 2008 Posted October 28, 2008 Thank you! I appreciate anyone that's there for me through this tough time. I know it will pass but it sucks being right here right now. I can't wait for the day when I can look back at all this and say 'wow, I made it through one of the worst time of my life but now my life is better. I have a new life, good career, new friends." I know I need to make that happen though and it won't come on its own You are certainly on the road to a great start!!! They say it makes you stronger and time we shall see. I agree about the toughest time part as my ordeal with ex has been the hardest for me as well. I am not sure that I would even share this info with a new interest because she may feel that she would never compare.
Just_dealin_with_it Posted October 28, 2008 Posted October 28, 2008 I'm right there with you alwaysme, I feel like I'm in a constant day in and day out struggle of feeling the same old sadness and loneliness, longing for someone who has moved on to someone else. I am currently in the NC mode which I think has helped, but at the same time I don't feel like she's noticed, especially now that she's with someone else. I keep hoping I'll wake up tomorrow and it will all be gone, the feelings, the memories; all these things I just don't know what to do with, yet they're all stuck in my head. I also am not as close to many of my friends who I seemed to have distanced myself from while in my relationship. It's hard to hang out with them, because you don't realize that while you were off in your own little world, they were busy too with work or school or both. They don't have the time to hang or talk to you just cause you're lonely and need them to be there. It sucks, but we'll be fine with time, its just a long and agonizing waiting game for enough time to pass before we feel better.
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