RobynxBanks Posted October 25, 2008 Posted October 25, 2008 I have been dating this guy for about 3 years off and on.. (I'm sorry.. I know a lot of you don't like to read a lot.. But i HAVE to tell you the whole story.. Or you will be lost. Lol.) When we first started dating everything was going great! And then all of the sudden he breaks up with me about 2 or 3 months later out of no where.. Over the phone even! I was completely devistated. I know 2 or 3 months isn't a very long time.. But I thought I was just in love with him.. So it broke my heart. He told me it was because he didn't know what he wanted.. And that he just wanted to take a break.. So i agreed.. And then we were just kind of seeing eachother off and on.. (I lived an hour away from him) Which was cool.. And he always told me that he didn't want anybody else.. That he loved me and only me.. Then one day out of the BLUE he tells me that he made out with this girl and they were dating.. I was in complete shock.. He said it right to my face.. And like a JERK! (we we're still having sex with eachother also) I couldn't believe it. And he had NO remorse.. I told him that I NEVER wanted to talk to him again! I was so furious! Well.. Low and behold not even 2 effing weeks rolled by and guess who called me? Yep.. You guessed it.. And I didn't even know it was him becuase he had JUST gotten a cell phone.. I had TONS of missed calls from him... I called him back and I just SCREAMED at him.. I was bawling and just.. Had a major break down. Basically what he said was.. "Oh.. I miss you.. And I was just seeing how you were doing.. Will you come see me?" Blah blah... Because he can't drive.. Doesn't have a car.. Anyways.. Like an idiot I went up and seen him.. And then he kicked me out.. Heh. It went on like that for oh.. another 4 months until he broke up with the girl that he was dating.. (And yes.. He cheated on her with me.. And I feel horrible about it.) =[ But.. After they broke up he INSTANTLY called me.. And told me about it.. Well... Then after they broke up.. She told her best friend that I cheated on my boyfriend now with like 4 of his best friends.. And the one that was dating HER friend was one of my boyfriend's friends.. And that one ACTUALLY ADMITED TO IT!!! I couldn't believe it.. I was so mad.. (I didn't cheat on my boyfriend by the way) It was her slimy little way to get him back. I was so furious because it wasn't true.. Well.. He asked me back out anyways.. And this was in May of last year.. Then things just took a turn for the worst.. He bawled and balwed that he wanted me back SO bad.. And then broke up with me in August on my birthday!! I told him that this was the VERY last time I would ever date him and see him.. And then we didn't talk.. I kept my word.. I never called him.. Not once.. And he called me a week later because he had gotten robbed and he was mad about that and just wanted somebody to talk to.. I was like.. "Dont ****ing call me.. I dont care.." And hung up. Well.. A couple of weeks after that I went to a strip club with my cousin for her birthday.. It was a really good time.. Yadda yadda.. I got offered a job.. Well... I took it.. I was just curious.. Lol. So I started working their in September of last year.. And my boyfriend now would call, and call, and call, and call.. He wanted me to come see him soooo bad! So one night that I got off of work.. I went to his house.. (I didn't tell him I was stripping.. I figured it was none of his business.. We weren't dating anyhow..) I went up with TONS of money in my purse.. And he saw it when he was getting a smoke out of my purse.. And he asked me where I had gotten all that money.. I told a little lie.. And said that I had gotten it from my grandmother.. Because I had JUST gotten there.. And I didnt want to get kicked out right away.. I was just kind of saving myself a headache.. The next day I told him.. HE FLIPPED OUT!! And called me a cheating slut and kicked me out. Of course... Like I knew he would have done. That night I went to work.. Guess who called me 50 times? No joke.. Leaving me voice mails.. Saying he was sorry.. And that he missed me and loved me.. Blah blah...Same ol same ol.. Another week had passed and he wanted me to come see him.. AGAIN.. So I went to his house and he told me how much he loved me.. And that he just doesn't want to see me doing that.. SO... I quit... We stated dating AGAIN around end of October of last year. And we have been together ever since.. BUT here is the dilema.. Since I made you read all of that.. LOL! Every since we started dating AGAIN.. Things were fine for the first couple of months... I moved in because he wanted me too.. And then all of the sudden it happens again.. He acusses me of cheating on him all the time.. He calls me a slut and a good for nothing piece of ****.. And he beggs on me because I WAS a stripper.. (When he knew damn well I was one.. ) And it has been like this since the year!! He tells me all the time that he swears he will change.. And it is just the same bull****.. And he threatens to kill himself if I say I'm fed up and going to leave. Well.. Now.. He doesn't want to hang out with me.. EVER.. He pushes me away.. Constantly.. He is always upstairs with his friends smoking pot.. (I don't by the way) and hanging out with them.. BUT... He claims he needs his alone time.. Because he has.. "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder" And he's "Bi-Polar" So he claims.. Which.. I DO go back home EVERY weekend.. So he has the WHOLE weekend to himself to do what he wishes.. And When I come back.. I want to hang out with him.. That is normal right? Well.. He doenst want to hang out with me even though he calls me says he misses me and he wants me home!! I don't get it.. Whenever I ask him to hang out with me he freaks out and hits me.. Calls me names.. And then.. At the end of the day.. He says he's sorry.. And then does it all over again the next day.. I don't want to hang out with him all the effinf time.. I like some alone time too.. But jeez.. I am downstairs all the time.. By myself.. I can't hang out with anybody.. Because I am "Supposidly" cheating on him.. He goes through my email.. My text messages.. My calls.. He has broken already a phone that I have bought with my own money.. And he never replaced it.. (It was brand new) he has broken NUMEROUS items of mine and has not cared.. =[ I just want him to hang out with me.. And pay a little attention to me.. I am so sick of being alone.. I can't stand it!! I CANT EVEN GO TO SCHOOL TO GET MY GED WITHOUT HIM FREAKING OUT AND HITTING ME!!! I'm to the point to where I just want to kill myself.. (I'm not.. But that's just what I feel like!) What should I do?! What can I do?! I just want his attention without getting beat up.. That's all I ask of him.. =[ Like tonight.. His friends came over and he called me a slut right when they walked in.. I was just minding my own business.. And I said a remark back to him.. And he came over and slapped me.. Right infront of them.. He has been mad all day because I didnt feel like going home this weekend.. He got sooo furious.. I was sleeping.. And he came in and woke me up by hitting me.. IN MY SLEEP.. He kicked me off the bed onto the floor.. Because he wanted to go to his grandmothers house and he didnt want to leave me in the house.. Alone.. WHILE I WAS SLEEPING!! I used to fight him back.. But I don't anymore.. I just don't have it in me.. All that I want from him was to hang out every once in awhile... That's all.. And he make's me look like a bitch to his family and friends.. He calls his mother and tells her that I BEAT UP ON HIM!!!! I am 5'4 and 100 pounds people.. He is 5'9 and 170...
BlueHarvest Posted October 25, 2008 Posted October 25, 2008 I'm not a big guy but I HATE guys who physically abuse women. 9/10 most women abusers are extremely insecure about themselves but don't have the balls to stand up to other guys so they take it out on targets they know won't fight back (alot)....targets being women. If I ever saw a guy beating up on his girl or knew about a guy who did and met him in an alley behind a bar or something... "It's clobbering time!" Never hit a woman. EVER.
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