ChickenAce Posted October 24, 2008 Posted October 24, 2008 Amongst other things my father left this world this way to me. He left it like hey you either marry whom i want or your going to lose and regret it the rest of your life. Everytime i meet a girl nowadays, I feel like dang I wish my father would approve. He was a great man and a very blessed man by God but he has left me demoralized about my own hopes and dreams. I don't exclusively blame him but I feel rattled to the core where my own mind body and soul are shaking with doubt and unhappiness. Whereas I seen other parents bend for their kids and adjust, this man never would. He was a no compromise man, my way or die sonny. You will never have my blessing for anything other than what I want because I disapprove. I consider myself an international person and know the merits of his opinions but I am quite simply shellshocked because I am by nature slightly more open minded than to his traditional beliefs but I feel scarred for life. I don't know how to even conceptualize dating. When I bring a girl home of another race, my mom gives her a difficult look and I am yet again reminded that I have no blessing in whatever I try for. Girls and guy friends have even told me, this is not going to work because of your parents close-mindedness. I feel my health has deteriorated and I am unable to live the life I want to live. For my parents to leave me on this earth without any sense of joy to pursue or dream that I want to build for myself albeit a small one, I get more sick by the day and tremble. Any thoughts or do I just do what is expected of me and live unhappy?
CommitmentPhobe Posted October 24, 2008 Posted October 24, 2008 I think you have to make a decision, let your parents screw up your life or make one for yourself without their shadow looming over you. Sounds a lot easier than it is, but objectively the latter is your only real choice. I'm sure many will have had to have broken away.
Author ChickenAce Posted October 24, 2008 Author Posted October 24, 2008 I kinda believe now its not only their shadow looming over me, I got a couple of my own ones. It is easy to blame them but yet it is still easy to blame them cause all variables contribute to a condition if you know what i mean. I guess I just got to figure this big one out on my own.
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