wayfaerer1 Posted October 13, 2008 Posted October 13, 2008 It's been over a month and a half since we broke up, and it was really bad in the beginning, and things I know are slowly getting a little better. But today for some reason I'm thinking about her a lot. I've been in "no contact" since about a month ago. The thing is, I know I'm slowly getting better, but I still feel as if I'll never stop thinking about her entirely, what she's up to, if she wonders what I'm up to, etc. Just having a crappy, day, I was going strong and now I'm falling again... When will these waves of negative emotions end?
EmperorR Posted October 13, 2008 Posted October 13, 2008 I know the feeling, 20 days NC for me, some days are so good, some days are so bad, today I feel horrible as well, I just want to MSG, like hey happy thanksgiving (im in canada), but I know if I do, i'll be like starting over from the beginning again, and I'd rather not. I just hate the relapses.
trueblue72ny Posted October 13, 2008 Posted October 13, 2008 day 15 nc for me. right now everyday is still a bad day. all day everyday. except for little breaks here and there i feel ok for about 5 minutes and then its back to the void. at least the girl took my jewerly off and hasnt been hanging around my side of the office the last couple weeks. i hate the idea of her wearing MY jewerly i gave her and seeing someone else with their filtry freakn paws touching it. i do take it extremely personal. i dont care if she likes it or not. it isnt right wearing it. she stopped walking around my side of the office just after i blew her cell phone up with text messages two weeks ago. sometimes i wish she would walk. but then i am glad she doesnt because it would drive me crazy.
EmperorR Posted October 13, 2008 Posted October 13, 2008 day 15 nc for me. right now everyday is still a bad day. all day everyday. except for little breaks here and there i feel ok for about 5 minutes and then its back to the void. at least the girl took my jewerly off and hasnt been hanging around my side of the office the last couple weeks. i hate the idea of her wearing MY jewerly i gave her and seeing someone else with their filtry freakn paws touching it. i do take it extremely personal. i dont care if she likes it or not. it isnt right wearing it. she stopped walking around my side of the office just after i blew her cell phone up with text messages two weeks ago. sometimes i wish she would walk. but then i am glad she doesnt because it would drive me crazy. i told my ex to throw away all the lingerie i bought her, i'd feel like more crap knowing some idiot is taking it off
trueblue72ny Posted October 13, 2008 Posted October 13, 2008 hopefully she has enough class to toss it. that would be dispicable not too, gross and somewhat whorish as far as i am concerned. and if someone does something like that than you probably really wouldnt want that kind of person in your life anyway. what is that quote from the movie the secret window? a woman who steals your love when love is all you got isnt much of a woman, or something like that. it is going to take me a loooong time before i buy any woman any jewerly ever again. she would probably be wearing it if i didnt ask her not too.
9Lives Posted October 13, 2008 Posted October 13, 2008 I'm glad to read this post, I have been having bad days too. It has been really 5 days since our last contact. It takes times I assume. Good to know nothing is wrong with me...you will have good days and bad days. Thanks for letting me know or reminding me of that. It is part of the process. I just keep hoping I will hear from him but then I know it is not a good idea anyway.
Author wayfaerer1 Posted October 13, 2008 Author Posted October 13, 2008 Yeah you guys will pull through - I know I've definitely improved somewhat, I mean very very little, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I'd like to message her too and say things just to be nice, but you're right, you don't want none of that, at all. Take it from me, the pain of "no contact" is better than the pain of talking to them and thinking you've still got a chance or some false hope - all that does is tear you to pieces my friends. It's just some days, I go to sleep or wake up in the morning in agony because I know it's really over with. Just crumby.
MichiganMan222 Posted October 13, 2008 Posted October 13, 2008 First new day for me. Looks like a long road to travel. From another post, we did our final exchange of things in a neutral place. We hugged, kissed and said goodbye. She teared up. We went on our way. Later than night, she TX me saying how much this sucks (and she is the dumper). I finally responded with a simple "Yeah".....So far today nothing from me, nothing from her. Can hardly keep focus on my work. Its gonna be a rough night.
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