Hurtling Posted October 11, 2008 Posted October 11, 2008 Ok look i met this girl on MSN 5 months ago, her family are pretty well off she has a grumpy old step dad who works in a bank and is quiet but scornful (well was towards me anyway he is also Canadian) so i would say they are a higher class than middle class, the girl is Thia and a real knock out (she is studying interior archetecture and design atm. She live in Joe's house with her mum who as i know now is a little two faced. Anyway ok so she has an American dad also who looked after her for a while (who is also wealthy) when she was younger who she apparently adores. Ok went to Thialand with her a week in after meeting her, we got on very well had fun together, i tried to make her feel as special as i could, we stayed in Bankok and moved to Phuket after a week. (i met her American dad in Thialand apparently he was a bit of a manhore but we got on like a house on fire). The holiday came to an end after a month but did not finish without us having some arguements with each other. (This is when i started to realise BUT ignore my feelings of Red Flags dinging away in my mind). As soon as we got back to her home Things began to go a bit sour with Joe, he just started acting wierd, then cutting a long story short the mom began turning against me eventually aswell and had an open discussion (while i was on the phone one night to her) to her about our relationship, basically it was alot of mean stuff about me not having anything me not having a family not having an education and not having even a job (which is all true but i was working on getting a job"but i also now realise tbh i didnt put enough effort into it") i talked with her parents told them that they where wrong to judge me so and that they should allow there duaghter decide for herself of what she wants and that should leave her love life alone but i told them that i understood how they may have worried about her being with me as truly i have had a tough life being in care and all that sort o bs, but who hasnt had it tough. Anyway moving on swiftly, it all turned out the first time only i wasnt allowed to the house for a while, her mums sister moved away back home, and the house was nice and quiet again and Joe (all he liked to do was come home and play poker on the computer he didnt like to talk to people) he got good news about his leg in regards to his diabetes (that he wouldnt loose it) and told my ex that i could come back and stay over if i wished. Just out of the blue like that everything wa fine again (i should have realised the signs then!) for him to set everything up again to blow it out of the water... So i went back, ( i felt i loved her still do, so of course i wanted to stay with her every chance i had, this didnt help (as now i realise amoung other thigns as it made me appear lazy and good for nothing like they where drilling into her head. Anyway she texted me she wanted to break up with me all of a sudden this happened twice the first time i ran to her and fixed after much heartache she gave in. The second time was it.. i suspect she was confronted by her mum who was two faced and she bad mouthed me to my ex CONSTANTLY i mean wrecking her head so much she just would not let up and leave her alone i think. That she just said thats it and gave up. Texted me Sean i want to break up with you (after her calling me like an hour before too arranging to meet up with me after her college that evening) said she wanted to break up with me, that she didnt love me etc and that i should just move on, that i should just forget her and that she wasnt good enough all this bull etc which left me very hurt (this was my first relationship btw) I dont know what to do i did send a previous post but i feel it just was too long for people to not fall asleep half way through it, but yeah i know this is long too i hope its alot clearer and to the point. I REALLY dont knwo what to do i feel i love her SO much. I am beginning to feel obsessed with her i cant get her out of my mind, sometimes its ok but others i just break down (when ime on my own especially) am i lonely just? or? i really dont know these feelings they are knew to me... and i feel that i will never be happy with any other girl i see, i jsut feel i want her SO bad, and i feel very regretful that i didnt have the drive i have found in myself now i jsut i am resolute now i jsut do what i got to do, it has changed the face of me. But i still feel like breaking down in despair. I dont know what to do please help with your advise it will really help me. IS THERE ANY... HOPE for the future between me and her i know she still loves me. I dont know whether i should give in to my feeling of just calling her or texting her or even emailing her to let her know of what i have done how hard i really have tried and am continuing too.. She also said that she looked at me and she just said she cant see us getting on now, that she will be an archetect and i will be? what a soldier in the army? (i have appleid and awaiting still my app to be processed but i am having even doubts about that) i am seriously thinging of going to college next year and do a business degree. anyway please help me out if can... tahnks very very much for your replies and for reading this post! i appreciate it! Question: Should i contact her? ime afraid of possibly blowing what little hope maybe still there, if it is there. BTW i am 22 and Irish She is just gone 20 and Thia
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