Ponderosa Posted October 9, 2008 Posted October 9, 2008 lets start out by saying i have always been a free spirit. i am engaged, and was previously married and divorced. I am obsessed with fantasizing. I love fantasies. I always sit and wonder what it's be like to kiss people.. when i see a sexy guy at the office (or girl for that matter) i cant help but wonder what it would be like to kiss them. Then i play out detailed fantasies or daydreams in my head. I love it. I sometimes think i should go into the erotic story profession. So much can be said with words and to leave allll thats left to the imagination.. its just amazing! I love those "first kiss" passionate moments. WHere you just want to take them forcefully in your arms and kiss them for the first time. Hot heavy passionate *sigh* But i wonder sometimes, if this is harmful behavior? Am i doing this bcz i'm lacking passion in my relationship?? You always hear the saying, if youre thinking about cheating you might as well. But i'm not thinking about cheating.. in my head theyre fantasies, and of course, i would be single in them.. unless of course they are of the group kind. lol. What has gotten me thinking so hard, is that i started working for the company i am at, and one of the owners is such an awesome guy. He fits my typical fantasy, latin, spanish speaking (i love that) much older than me, i love that too... And i catch myself thinking of all these scenarios. Harmless chatting turning into... knocking everything off the desk throwing me on top.. and well you know. I have been trying to look up info online to see if this is some kind of behavior problem or unhealthy obsession but i cant find anything. Anyone else do this?? Is there some kind of creative outlet? Should i write stories?! ha. How do i get over this?! He's been buggin me for a while. I cant get him out of my head. Normally its a random person and i dont think m,uch about it. BUt i am catching myself being so intrigued by him. Like a kid daydreaming all day... sorry for the rambling. enjoy my first post guys
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