BackonTrack Posted October 5, 2008 Posted October 5, 2008 Ok Folks, Well, as many as you know my first serious relationship ended a few months back. Appears my ex got bored and started looking for something else. Anyway I had no idea and kept loving her, a few months ago I found out she was cheating on me, had been for about 6 months. So anyway I tried to break up with her, I couldn't, she ended up telling me to **** off. Destroyed me for about 6 months. I just started to come out of the fog about 30 days ago. So now I'm recovered, still think about the ex from time to time, but thats about it. Still sad sometimes she left, but thats life. I have been trying to get involved in a relationship, this dating game is rather strange. It is actually a game. It really is a game. Anyway, I had sex with about 3 women post break-up, nothing steady, no girlfriend replacement as of yet. I do have my eye on this one girl, she seems to think all I want is sex though. She says I don't listen. I think she's right, I suppose I have to play it cool until I get inside her. I think I'm shooting myself in the foot though, I have to change my approach. This other female is weird, something is wrong with her mind. She seems to think I should come save her whenenver she's bored, doesn't wanna have sex with me either. I deleted her number fast. This other other female, is strange too, she comes over, she bascially threw her pussy at me in her own way. I had not realized it until the next morning which is when I told myself "Damn", anyway after that incident, she sort of stood away. I tried to contact her a couple times, but she said she was always busy. Anyway, she IMED me a few days ago, I didn't respond but I called her about 2 days later. Turns out she says "We are going into XX with a few friends", whats sad is I know who she's talking about intimately, personally but instead of saying the names, she says "Friends." So that started to change, her vocubulary is starting to change, the way in which she speaks to me is started to change, she is acting more like a girly girly now. She knows I am interested in her, I think she wants me to chase her. Sort of like she's putting on a phasade of who she wants me to think she is as opposed to who she is, because she wants me to respect her more. I don't get it, its all about image. This other other other female, she wants a relationship but is not sure if she can get me to do what she wants me to do. I think I'm being to much of a nice guy with her, she seems to think things should go HER way. I think she already knows how I am, I don't know how she mange to pick that up and now she's seeing weather I would listen to her or not before she actually lets me inside. I hadn't realize this until after our "date" was over, then I was like "Ok she's wants in, but has some reservations" Not sure how I can put her mind at ease. Now that I realize it, I'm playing a game with them. My last relationship, I played 100% no games. I showed my ex what she was getting, she accepted it but got bored of me and started ****ing someone else. I did had to tone it down a notch with her, she never could handle me. Somehow she got tough, I don't know how, and told me to **** off. I was nice to her, didn't disrespect her, took care of her, but I stop talking to her n I had a one night stand on her. She left me. But didn't leave me per say, cheated on me, kept me on a string, then told me to **** off after I grew enraged she was with someone else and told her to come back. Appears she was done with me, I hadn't realized. Its almost like she waited to know I cared before she hurt me. I guess she really wanted me to get the message. She got grimey on me in the end, messed me up for a good 6 months. Then again I seen the changes happening, never understood what was causing them though. Once she was whole again, she destroyed me good. Despite it all, I don't hate her. I wonder what she's up too.
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