Trying this again...i realize it was long before but i really need some insight.

[zillad707]

So this girl and her friend came to visit me and my roommate. Ive been talking/hanging out with this girl for about 5 months now but we were not technically dating although we have kissed and slept/cuddled together (not sex).

 

So while they're visiting, her friend goes on my computer and sees a conversation that i stupidly saved between me and her. It was small talk at first and then turned into me asking her what her deal was (the girl i like) cause we got in an argument or two since the time they actually came to visit. Her friend said that she was just wierd sometimes and was really really shy but asked me if i liked her and i said yeah.

 

after the girl i like read this she got really pissed and the whole night was shot as we didnt talk much and when we did it turned into arguing. she says she was mad cause the convo made her look like a b**ch but i dont really think it did. maybe she was mad that i like her? either way she said it was "pathetic" but i'm just a shy guy.

 

we went a whole day without talking and she finally caved and IMed me. i didn't think i should have to text first, she went nuts that night and i didnt know what to do or say to her. and since she now knows i like her it would be too wierd for me. it's like now i feel the ball's in her court but the only problem is she is pissed at me so it's like i wish i would have told her sooner.

 

anyways she started by saying "thanks for being so shady" she seemed upset that i hadn't tried talking to her but i was embarrassed how she found out that i liked her. i was i was busy with school (i lied) and she said i have never been "too busy" before to talk to her. so i thought i was having the upper hand all of a sudden an argument starts. she said she wasn't mad i talked to her friend about her but more mad that i denied i saved the convo. i explained to her that she called me out on this in front of other people so i didn't feel like talking about it so she may have thought i was just covering my tracks or lieing. i told her that night she flipped i wanted to talk to her in private but she refused.

 

to end the argument i told her the only reason i had even talked to her friend was "because i liked you" and i wanted to know what she thought of me. i told her i was "shy about that stuff". i said i only saved the conversation cause i wanted to remind myself of what i said because i didnt know what to expect when she visited...i had assumed that her friend would tell her i asked about her even though she said she wouldn't. however i had no idea she would react like this if she had even found out about the conversation. it's not my fault they creeped on my computer.

 

so she hasn't really said anything about liking me back or not. i mean if i had to guess she would say "no" or "not anymore". but we were so close at one point that i think about her a lot and wish i would have handled things differently. and i truly thought at one point she had feelings for me. it's hard to not talk to someone for a whole day after you talk to them everyday, throughout the day, for 5 months. should i give up on her or will she come around after she misses the good times we had?

 

so if anyone took the time to read this...thank you.