crimsonrose Posted September 30, 2008 Posted September 30, 2008 Ok, so when I'm with my fiance in Australia, I seem to be alot less scatter-brained. He asks me to do something, I do it. He needs something, I'm right there. But I feel like when we part, I literally leave half of my brain behind or something. Like my fiance gave me 600 bucks to pay off my laptop with, because I got myself into debt over it. All he asked was that I transfer the money into american money today and pay off the laptop asap. So today I getup (late as usual because i stay up all night tlaking to him, cuz his night is my day and so on) and lo and behold the bank is closed so they cant transfer the money. Then yesterday I tried to pick up applications for a job, but I've been sick since I got back from Australia, and I hadn't been outside much since I got home 5 days ago so as soon as I stepped outside and wlaked into the building where I want to work at, i started coughing like a madwoman and couldnt breathe, so I had to run back home before someone asked if I was ok. I've done this so many times. Its like I put all of my effort into the things I need to get done, and when I'm not with my fiance I seem to mess up more than humanly possible. Does anyone else feel like theyre missing half of themsel es without your boyfriend or fiance or husband? I seriously feel a little insane
Eilonwy Posted September 30, 2008 Posted September 30, 2008 Hm, nothing like you described. But I feel much more secure when we are together. I feel like I can get my work done and I know he would always support me if necessary, and then when I'm back alone... I feel lost and I doubt I can do it all alone. Of course it works out in the end, somehow, but it still sucks. In your case it could just be that you were so tired and sick! Days after night-session chats can be really hard. (By the way... is that you in your avatar? If so, you are extremely beautiful. I don't mean to hit on you or so (I'm female anyway. ), but I just had to say it. Wow.)
Hoosier09 Posted September 30, 2008 Posted September 30, 2008 Do you mean like, you find yourself just talking to him all the time instead of doing things you should? Because I do. I come home from school, put off my hw, been meaning to set up another bank account but haven't, skip church, have skipped school maybe , put off errands...and get more stressed out. Also I'm insecure too. So if you mean ultimately you're not happy far apart and you feel you're missing something...it's because you do miss him...i dunno you see what i mean? so it's normal. its not necessarily a bad thing in a sense i dont think because there is any way to avoid it.
Author crimsonrose Posted October 1, 2008 Author Posted October 1, 2008 Hm, nothing like you described. But I feel much more secure when we are together. I feel like I can get my work done and I know he would always support me if necessary, and then when I'm back alone... I feel lost and I doubt I can do it all alone. Of course it works out in the end, somehow, but it still sucks. In your case it could just be that you were so tired and sick! Days after night-session chats can be really hard. (By the way... is that you in your avatar? If so, you are extremely beautiful. I don't mean to hit on you or so (I'm female anyway. ), but I just had to say it. Wow.) Indeed, that's how I get. But another thing is I've been trying to get a job for months before I visited him, and now again I'm trying and somethign always seems to get in the way. I only get this when I'm not with him. I dunno. Makes me feel really, well, stupid. lol And yes, tis me. Thank you so much And no worries, I didn't think you were hitting on me. lol
Author crimsonrose Posted October 1, 2008 Author Posted October 1, 2008 Do you mean like, you find yourself just talking to him all the time instead of doing things you should? Because I do. I come home from school, put off my hw, been meaning to set up another bank account but haven't, skip church, have skipped school maybe , put off errands...and get more stressed out. Also I'm insecure too. So if you mean ultimately you're not happy far apart and you feel you're missing something...it's because you do miss him...i dunno you see what i mean? so it's normal. its not necessarily a bad thing in a sense i dont think because there is any way to avoid it. And yes, I do get that too. Last time i came home from visiting my fiance I was really into my schoolwork. Since I'm homeschooled I worked ahead and was almot completely graduated by 16. And then this time, it's probably because I'm sick, but I can't seem to get quite enough done.
Author crimsonrose Posted October 1, 2008 Author Posted October 1, 2008 Do you mean like, you find yourself just talking to him all the time instead of doing things you should? Because I do. I come home from school, put off my hw, been meaning to set up another bank account but haven't, skip church, have skipped school maybe , put off errands...and get more stressed out. Also I'm insecure too. So if you mean ultimately you're not happy far apart and you feel you're missing something...it's because you do miss him...i dunno you see what i mean? so it's normal. its not necessarily a bad thing in a sense i dont think because there is any way to avoid it. Mmm, and also, yes, I tend to be insecure without him too. When I'm with him I feel safe and I feel pretty and so on and so forth, but apart, because I'm missing half of me, i feel a little lost.
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