She fooled me Good.

[BackonTrack]

I've been posting allot lately. Seems my tread count is increasing since I became better. I don't know what happen but I woke up 6 months later with a new life.

 

New Business

New Apartment

New Car

A little money.

 

Everything is the same still. Just the ex is not here. It would be nice to have company again.

 

In all honesty I don't know what went wrong with my relationship, but its over now. No contact in about 6 months. I did send her a drunken text about a month ago.

 

Can't believe I made such a big deal about this entire situtation. I think she hurt my pride more than anything else. She attacked me at the core.

Vicious female, hurt me pretty bad. I was messed up for about 5 months.

 

The sad part is, I showed her how messed up I was. I think she got a kick out of it. She probably smiled to herself "I got him back"

 

The thing is though, she hated me for no reason. Really, she didn't have a reason. Turns out she cheated on me, wasn't sure if we were together or not, but once she figured it out. She didn't stop.

 

Infact she pushed forward and started a new relationship, pulled back on me, eventually left me. No big deal in the grand scheme of things, but whats sad is, she resented me. She thought I deserved what I got.

 

I wonder what I did to her, she's vicious. I'm so glad we didn't end up married, oh man in the future if I would of pissed her off, she would of destroyed me.

 

Funny thing though, she was happy she didn't get pregnaught, she was trying to do it for so long. I guess once the in-love phase wore off due to the fact she was bonning someone else for 6 months, she realized how stupid that would of been. I saved her a couple times, I didn't know she was not on birth control, spent about $200 on morning after pills.

 

I was always saving her, she never helped me though. Well one time, she organized my cabinet. That was nice of her. But I had to pay her almost $2000 to finish it. Now that I think about it, she never did anything for me. She kept me company though. I wonder why she went to such extremes to stay in contact with me.

 

In the end when I found out, I was so far gone mentally. I was so obsessed with her. I loved her so much, I let her walk over me. She didn't completely treat me like a doormat, I did stand up for myself a few times but I always caved in.

 

In the end, she won, hurt me pretty good. It was never a game though.

I did end up suffering in the end.

 

Its kind of sad how things ended. I wish she would of told me she was seeing someone. Left me in limbo for about 3 months. She had to sure up the relationship first though before she left me, smart girl. Hurt me pretty bad. I don't think I'll forget it. Atleast not until I find love again.

 

Anyway thats the end of that.

 

Well I'm on a new page in life, its totally blank. I haven't filled it yet with life experience. I'm kind of preparing, sort of, for the next stage. Not sure if I'll see her again, we travel in different circles.

 

Well its time to install a Block Page plugin into firefox, to keep me from visiting this site. I came on this forum pretty broken, not understanding or realizing what was happening.

 

What I found out was pretty shocking. Turns out everyone goes through this one time or another. It just happen to me late in life. I wish I would of handled it differently. Oh well, can't reverse time. Whats that saying?? U live n Learn right?

 

I never knew she was one of those girls though. She fooled me good.

[Mike B.]

Good to hear that you have moved on. It is a very liberating feeling, right?

 

 

I kind of had a similar situation. My ex began cheating on me with someone we both work with. Right under my nose. Ouch!

 

The thing about it, I always knew she didn't have the greatest personality but I decided that I would try hard in the relationship in order to make it good for a complicated reason I won't go into now. Anyway, I decided before I even met her that the next relationship I get in, I would try very hard to be the ideal partner and be very free-hearted in it and she just so happen to have been my next relationship when I made that promise top myself. Although she did have some personality issues, I thought she just had too much class and maturity to pull what she did and she showed no remorse. The climax of our break up just left me with my mouth hanging open in wide-eyed surprise.

 

Anyway, some people just don't give a damn about anything but themselves. It is hard to understand those type of people if you are not one of them. You spend many hours trying to figure out why they do what they do but thankfully your heart is probably just to leveled to get into the frame of a twisted one so it is a waste of time.

 

Keep enjoying your freedom from her!

[BackonTrack]

Mike B, You always seem to give good advice.

Infact you give great advice and I feel as if I can relate to you and by your words, it allows me to look at things differently. Somehow you are imparting your experience on relationships with the way you phrase things.

 

On a different note Mike B, in all honesty, I still cry for my girlfriend. Its pathetic I know, Its been 6 months, she decieved, lied, & was cheating on me. I don't know why I am still crying, for about maybe 5 minutes every night. Not crying just tearing that she's gone.

 

I am not sitting at home doing nothing either, actually I am, but I did have 3 rebounds. None of them lasted, no intimacy was built, actually with one of them but she wanted more than I was willing to give her so she left me. Same goes for the other 2. They wanted relationships, I didn't want that, I only wanted company. Now I'm lonely... Go Figure.

 

Its been about 6 months of TOTAL NC.

Hopefully in another few months, I will be pass this.

Its going away to slow, I think I have to start exercising again.

I have to do something to speed up this Move-On process.

 

Its been to long now.... I'm getting fed up. I just want to put this behind me. I don't want to remember. I hope this doesn't stay with me for life, I fear its going to be with me for a very long time, I'm not hurt. Its something else. Can't put my finger on it.

 

Maybe its dis-belief. She tricked me good. So good 6 months later, I still cry. I didn't know that little girl could cause me so much grief.

 

Thanks Mike for your viewpoint.

[Mike B.]

It sounds like you really have the right idea, Backon. It seems as though you understand that getting someone out of your system is a very active process. Yes, time heals all wound but how much time it takes depends on us.

 

This past weekend, I almost had a "not so good day" but I decided instead of sitting around at home to dwell on things to force myself to go and visit my cousin and his family. He lives almost an hour away but we spent the day together laughing and hanging out. We all went out to eat a good meal and watched a chessy horror flick to cap off the night. It was great and I have been in good spirits since.

 

 

 

It probably wouldn't hurt to call one of those women up and just hang out. If they try to pressure you into a relationship, just say that you are not ready right now and would like to take things slow. You don't have to go into detail and I definitely wouldn't be the guy who couldn't sop talking about his ex on the date.