K0wdub Posted September 28, 2008 Posted September 28, 2008 I met this girl 8 years ago when she was going out with one of my friends. I didn't see her again for 2-3 months, and that night we had sex. Needless to say, she was easy in her youth. Weren't most of us? I went away to rehab, came back and decided that she was too good to be the "other woman" that I wanted her as my main woman. Then she tells me she is pregnant, I had been gone for too long for the kid to have been mine, I told her this, told her I would stay by her side, help out, but we drifted apart. She married a naval officer, and I got with a girl in high school that I stayed with for most of 6 years off and on. Her husband beat her, treated the kid bad, so she moved back to our small town. I didn't know if she was in town or not, but one day I was bored and decided to call her. Turns out she was in town, but seeing another guy. I told her I was single, asked if she wanted to give it a shot, and she said yes. We dated a while, but I was doing Oxycontin with a needle constantly, and she found out about it and left me. I have been clean for 2 1/2 years, started college for my Bachelors Degree in the IT field with an emphasis on Multimedia and Animation so I can get in the gaming field. She is going to the community college to work with kids. About a week ago, I wrote her telling her that I still loved her, and that I had never stopped, that if she would give it a shot, I was sure we could make it work. She came down that day, we talked for hours, watched tv, and ended the day by making love, not having sex. At least that's what I considered it. She came down the next day, we watched a movie, I had class that night, but before she left, we again made love. She couldn't come down Monday, but came back Tuesday, and again I had a class, but I blew it off to make love to her again. Anyway, after about a week of going 200+ m.p.h. forward, she goes in the hospital, has her laptop with her and is on a wifi connection, we talk the whole time she is in the hospital( about 4 hours ) and nothing seems to have changed other than she's drugged, and tired. She stops by on her way home, and we go to talk in my room. She said she was just so tired, needed a break from working, and was just falling apart. I did my best to comfort her. As she was leaving my room these words will haunt me forever "Maybe we aren't meant to be together, just be there for each other in our darkest hours". That was about 2-3 days ago, I haven't slept, ate, I can barely bring myself to breathe. When she left that night it felt like we went from 200+ m.p.h. to she jerked the emergency break and I wasn't wearing my seatbelt and got thrown from the car. She lives with a guy that adopted her son. He has asked her to marry him countless times and she always says no. They stopped sleeping together about 4 months ago. Her son is now 7, and he really loves the guy. Now I can already tell what most of you are thinking,"You are crazy, she is living with another man, how do you know they aren't doing it right now? She is just keeping you there as backup in case they don't work out, all that hub-bub" My last relationship was a lie fest. The girl honest to god could not breathe without lying. I know this girl, I've known her for 8 years, she has always done her best to tell me the truth, and I can honestly say I don't think she has ever purposly lied to me, just like the kid being mine, she thought it was, it turns out she was taken advantage of while she was passed out, and that's why the father can't see the kid. Now, she still tells me she loves me, says she wants to be together, and is trying to work on a way for us to be together. When I ask what I can do she just says be patient. When I ask if I can help her feel better because she just keeps repeating she's falling apart, she says that only her gay friend can help her. She doesn't fully trust me because the first time we were together I was dating other women, and she was the mistress, then I was doing drugs the 2 time and she didn't know about it, and when she found out, she did what was best for her son. How can I resolve this situation and make things work between me and her?
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