Sad, Angry , and have completely lost hope

[rudeartist]

I was rejected today. No surprise, I can live with it. But I honestly thought this was going to work out this time.

 

I'm the typical nice guy. I can't flirt for **** and my confidence is nearly none existant, and when those fleeting oppertunites to come along where I'm stupid enough to beleive I've find someone who finds me the least bit desireable, I put all my heart and emotion into it.

 

But girls seem to dispise me for this. It's the only way I can describe it. O hsure they're amused by it at first, then they grow tired of your doting, tender nature and fling you aside like a used condom left-over from the sex you're never going to have.

 

I just don't understand it. You women out there spend your lives bitching about how you can never meet a sensitive guy, yet even when you're surrounded by them you still prefer to go for the macho ass-holes who look at women the same way trucker look at there next cheese-burger at the drive-thru.

 

Youl'd rather take the time to make a romantic gentalmen out of a total jerk, but won't even give nice-guys like me the time of day.

 

The really sad thing is that It's pretty much a pattern most women will end up following well into there thirties, when middle age has dried up most of the smoking hot looks that got them all there attention during their younger years, and the bad-boys they were so hot for no longer notice them becuase they're too busy going after the first 18 year-old that just stepped off the bus.

 

So it will only be around this time that they start to look our way, not becuase they want us, but becuase we're the only ones who still desire them.

 

I am so angry right now. I'm so angry I don't know whether to scream, curse, cry or puke. I honestly have come to a point in my life where I bleive that I will never find companionship.

 

not sex, but companionship, some to love and to be love by. Someone to share myself with completely.

 

Stupid, I know, but what the **** am I supposed to say? Those are the things I want in my life and yet every cosmic power that's got its all-powerful thumb in this disgusting ****-pile we call an existance, seems hell-bent on making sure that I end up dying alone.

 

I met a girl and I fell in love. I though what I felt for her meant something, becuase it was unlike any other feeling I had felt in my life.

 

I hate life for how much of a struggle it is for me, and I hate myself for not being what others want.

 

I've lost all hope this day, and quite honestl;y I don't know why I even continue to bother.

 

the answere?

 

Becuase I'm retarded enoguh to hold on to that tiny sliver of hope that I may find someone, but I'm not holding my breath.

 

When I do it'll probably involve a plastic bag and a rubber-band

[westrock]

Hi.... it's okay to get mad, angry, sad, and whatever else you feel like. I know life sucks sometimes especially when you do everything right and they don't return the love to you. If it is any comfort to you most of us have been where you are.

 

You know what to do? You pick up the pieces and realize that tomorrow is a new day. You never know who you will meet tomorrow or next week or next month. You might meet a woman standing in line for coffee tomorrow who has been searching everywhere for a guy just like you. That's the beauty of life. It is full of surprises.

 

If you feel like telling us more about what happened, feel free to post here some more.

[rudeartist]

let me fill you in on a little somthing about me. It is usually only once in a few years that a girl will look past my akwardness and see something worth her time.

[westrock]

let me fill you in on a little somthing about me. It is usually only once in a few years that a girl will look past my akwardness and see something worth her time.

 

Tell us some more information about yourself so that we get a better picture. What is it about you that you think makes you akward? What are some of your positive qualities?

 

Are you open to making a few changes to your approach with women to speed up that timeframe so girls will notice you more frequently?

[rudeartist]

I'm an introvert alright?

 

I don't get out often, and it's a ****ing cimb-up Mt. Everest whenever I try to branch out and poke my head out of its shelf. It's hard for me to relate to anyone even those that would be considered my peers

 

I'm too deep-minded for most normal people and a majority of the so-called deep-minded people think me to conventional to waste their time. So I oftan find myself stradling the various social boarders and finding no acceptance in either one them.

 

As far as girls go...... what can I say. I try to be kind and tender. But obviously that's not what they're looking for.

 

I find out about them, figure out what they like and try to work with that.

What the **** else can I say? I don't have the self-esteem to talk to a girl with an 'I don't care what she thinks of me additude.'

 

Sometimes I think I'm too emotional and too sensitive fopr my own good, but hey if a girl wants me to piss on her face after spending an evening verbally abusing her, hey I can change my ways! I can be an insensetive duche-bag too.

 

And unfortunatly, my biggest mistake is that I'm one of the stupid many who place women on some sort of pedistal. Cuz I'll tell you somthing, at this point I think the only pedistal a woman belongs on shoulb be a card-board box burried in five feet of week-old pig ****.

 

(I'm sorry, but these are the sort of thoughts that belong to someone who's been totally beaten down by his own social life.)

[Geishawhelk]

There's a grandfather who takes his two twin grandsons, Timmy and Tommy, out for the day. there they are, in their new shoes and trousers, looking forward to agreat day.

he takes them for a walk through the woods....

Timmy's getting really excited, kicking the leaves and scrambling over logs.... Tommy is dawdling and fretting about where to put his feet, and how to keep up....

 

Suddenly, they come across a stable, full of horse manure.

Tommy starts crying and bemoaning the fact that his new shoes are all dirty and his trousers all wet....

Timmy's leaping around excitedly...

Grampy asks him -

"what the heck you doin' Timmy?"

Timmy replies with glee -

"With all this horse -sh-- around here, there MUST be a pony somewhere!!"

 

Life is what you make it.

 

If you spend all your time moaning and groaning how bad you are at this, and how much you suck at that, and it's all so unfair - then, guess what?

You'll always be bad at this, and you'll always suck at that!

 

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting different results.

 

Change who you are. Change how you think.

Then, pick up and run!

[buzzie2]

Awww, don't be so hard on youself. You're just going through a rough patch. I am the same way as you except I am the female equivalent. I have been very hurt by men my whole life.

I thought that someone was in love with me but it turned out to be just a joke. I also spent 3 years hoping that someone loved me but he lied to me.

 

I just wanted to let you know that things will get better. Also, it is always better to be alone than with the wrong person.

In the meantime, try to get your mind of these feelings by doing something to take your mind off it. For me I like to excercise and spend time with famliy and friends.

Good Luck!

[rudeartist]

I don't think you people are fully grasping the direness of this situation I'm in. I am literally filled to the coar with dispair and and rage. the most putired kind of rage imagionable. the kind of rage that fuels war, biggotry and hatred.

 

I've litterally reached a point where I look at everything I see and feal a state of nausia consume me. Just the very act of bvreathing is life inhaling paint fumes.

 

I literially want to end all existance.

[rudeartist]

you guys may not like hearing this, but I represent the voice of the sensitive guys who've just been kicked around for so long that all they can do is proclaim to the world just how pissed off they are.

 

Some go to bars, drink a few shots and get into a fist fight

 

Some go out and by a shot-gun and turn half their school-mate or co-workerins into twitching piles of hamburger

 

And some, like me, use internet forums.

[torranceshipman]

I think you should go to counseling as something feels well off base here, way more extreme than just a regular break up. Dude, its ok to have a rant when you're feeling low but its that massive bitterness and that 'I'm too deep-minded for most normal people' attitude (which sounds like a superiority complex) that is causing you big problems. You need to try to look at life in a different way...we all have setbacks and disappointments, but to be fair, I think its your attitude that would put someone off more than anything else.

 

And for the record, one of my friends is a very good looking model, one of my male friends is an extremely successful and imo hot business director - both have got dumped pretty savagly more than once and experience flakiness as much as anyone else. So hard a it sounds, try not to take it personally as it happens to everyone.

 

And it was pretty mean to write what you did about women in their 30s. Just cause you're hurt doesnt give you a licence to go round taking pot shots at other people to try and make them miserable too.

[rudeartist]

that's the power or rage. all you know how to do is hurt others.... and somwhere deep inside a tiny piece of you gainst that little bit of satisfaction.