Hello

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I'm not too fond about going in the open and letting this all out well anyhow im going too cause i need to. Here it is , Me and my ex go together at the beginning of summer time every day we spent together it was a dream it was phenomenal all looked great nothing could stop us we were set she was a really emotional girl and some nights she would break down crying and beg me too never leave her and to always be there and too always follow through and I have never gave her a reason for me not too , I have always been there for her when we met we wernt looking for anything serious we agreed that it will be casual it got more deep then that she told me she loved me and i believed her and better yet i i loved her so i said it back , we new it was going to be tough after summer because she has universty and i have work i believe the day that she went back to school thats when it all changed instantly and i mean no nothing no communitcation and what not she never seen me when she said it was completley diferent from the girl ive known we instantly started to bicker and start little things she got way to jelouse and what and then 2 weeks into her schooling she told me she would want to be friends , I don't know why but i litterly broke down i couldn't bare with it to this point im still shaky i just dont understand theres so many questions i have to ask her but she wont its like im non excitint she said she would call me last night and i asked her why didn't you call? She said cause i never thought about it like what the ****? I am so confused at this point and i am beyond hurt this girl broke me , I opened up too her i was there for her i just wish i could end all ties with her but i cant , When we broke up she said that she was afraid i was going to hurt her and i don't know what she has went through i was so hurt when she said but i don't think its true because obvisouly if she can just get up and leave like this she never loved me nor is she attempting to be friends , I just want to cry i really do im not a emotional person but i seen a future with this girl i really did. It hurts it really dose and i don't know what too do my heart is telling me to hold on but i don't think thats really logical at this point

 

Im sorry if none of this makes sense its just really hard..