skydancing Posted September 19, 2008 Posted September 19, 2008 Of course, I had to break NC (I was on almost a month!) by wishing him good luck on his med school exam today via text. I thought that it would make him think of me positively. He even wrote back with thanks. He won't call because I just gave him a nice ego boost for nothing in return. Today I am a mess, but because I just found out I get put on the waitlist for one of the med schools I interviewed at this month. I freaked out and binged on sugar, called my dad only to have him call me an idiot for texting the ex, and now I just feel so depressed. I know that I have to be alone for a long time. I am a huge dorrmat for men. I haven't been single for more than a few months at a time since the beginning of high school (8+ years!). The thought of that makes me really sick. I want to escape from thinking. I am the one who is known for giving the best advice and help to others, but when it comes to helping myself I just can't lately. I am TIRED TIRED TIRED of thinking, analyzing, and trying to make myself happy. I am at a point where I feel like I want my life to end, and I know it's not good because I am in the middle of med school interviews and working and living alone in a new city. It sucks because yesterday I was feeling pretty good - everyone at work was supportive of me, asking me about why I am so modest about all of my achievements and about the way I look. I even got an interview at one of the schools that I would die to go to. I guess that is why I broke NC - I was feeling indestructable. There is this guy that I have been best friends with for years, who would be my boyfriend at the drop of a hat if I let him. But I recently told him to take a break from hanging out with me, so that we could concentrate on our friendship and he could lose feelings for me. He was the one that I would usually call to talk to about these things, but I know I can't go back on my decision. I really want things to go well between us. I am wishing so much that my ex will call me and at least talk to me, but I know he didn't care when we were together so he certainly doesn't care now. Sorry, I just needed to vent. Troubled times
Author skydancing Posted September 19, 2008 Author Posted September 19, 2008 Should I call/e-mail him and tell him how I am angry at him and I shouldn't have been so nice to him post-breakup? I am so angry that I let myself be nice to him with hopes that he would act right! He broke up with me in an email for goodness sake! I need to tell him that he sucks!
Green Posted September 19, 2008 Posted September 19, 2008 thats pointless just continue the NC ... ur not mad because he sux... ur mad because you liked him and he didn't suck. Continue NC and activly work towards thinking about other things then ur lonlyness and feelings for him. And by the way are Med school girls easy I just noticed on my facebook at hot girl I liked back in HS is in Medschool now and it says single hmmmm shes probably busy but she must get horny right
megapositive Posted September 19, 2008 Posted September 19, 2008 Should I call/e-mail him and tell him how I am angry at him and I shouldn't have been so nice to him post-breakup? I am so angry that I let myself be nice to him with hopes that he would act right! He broke up with me in an email for goodness sake! I need to tell him that he sucks! No, I wouldn't call or email or text him at all. First, you'll look silly being nice to him one day and soon after being angry with him. This will serve only to push him away. Second, he most likely won't respond, or if he does, whatever he might say will not satisfy you. I've done very similar things, allowing contact with an ex when I thought I could handle it and for reasons completely outside of the relationship (like you did, to wish him good luck). But it left me feeling worse again for a day or two because no matter my purpose for allowing contact, it dredged up unresolved feelings. I know it's awful, but I'm willing to bet you'll feel somewhat better in a couple hours, and even better by tomorrow. (Not ALL better, but somewhat better.) I know you are hurting and it just plain sucks!
westrock Posted September 19, 2008 Posted September 19, 2008 There is this guy that I have been best friends with for years, who would be my boyfriend at the drop of a hat if I let him. But I recently told him to take a break from hanging out with me, so that we could concentrate on our friendship and he could lose feelings for me. He was the one that I would usually call to talk to about these things, but I know I can't go back on my decision. I really want things to go well between us. Do you see any possible romance for this other guy or do you want him only as just as a friend?
wayfaerer1 Posted September 19, 2008 Posted September 19, 2008 Yeah, don't communicate anymore at all. Believe me, I want nothing more right now than to text or e-mail my ex and tell her what a b**ch she was to me for cheating on me. But when you really think about it, wouldn't you rather be the better person? Besides you'll feel better later on knowing you didn't contact him - being able to control your urges makes you a stronger person. Forget your ex - worry about you. I know how you feel though, I'm on an emotional rollercoaster ride from hell right now, with no end in sight. The only thing to do is stay positive - there is always light at the end of the tunnel, you just may not see it yet, but it's there.
EmperorR Posted September 20, 2008 Posted September 20, 2008 Don't NC, NC is for you that is what im learning, think like this the other person doesn't care about you or how your feeling, if they did they know your number they can text you etc. but hae they? I'm one day NC and whenever i feel like contacting my ex, i read this, your not sh*t to her at the moment, your nothing more than a stranger begging her for a date etc., slap yourself and don't do yourself lol
Author skydancing Posted September 20, 2008 Author Posted September 20, 2008 Do you see any possible romance for this other guy or do you want him only as just as a friend? I care about him a lot. But we would not get along romantically. He has never had a girlfriend before, and I've had my share of boyfriends. I am not physically attracted to him. Thanks everyone. I know it is best to go NC, but I just feel like I failed at gaining respect.
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