Warm Posted September 19, 2008 Posted September 19, 2008 Hey. I posted here a while back about my situation. 9 and a half year relationship. I got dumped. She never did anything to hurt me (except this) and I do take full responsibility for the breakup etc. We never argued or fought or cheated on each other. I basically took her for granted because I tend to get lost in my own little world, but saying that it turns out I have ADHD and have gone to counselling since about something really dark that happened to me as a kid. I see this breakup as a good thing for me, but i still love her to bits. This happened about 3 months ago and I have been pretty restrained in contacting her (after the first month of blurting out all my feelings ons facebook etc ) . We met up for the first time at a festival 2 weeks ago. She was with her best buddy and I brought a mutual friend so that it would not be uncomfortable for her. We went to see a certain band and i was kind of beautiful seeing her free, single and dancing about. I didnt harass her in anyway.. i stood back, just tried to be cool. It was kinda funny seeing her being harassed by guys and not jumping in to save her!! So at the end of that act\band (out mutual friend had gone) we ended up hugging for about 5 mins. She said stuff like.. "it was a wonderfull 10 years" "be strong" etc and I just nodded and said nothing. I was kind of lost in the hug if you know what I mean tears were forming in my eyes but I held them back. She saw them, but I didnt break down. Thats when she told me to be strong. She said you can still hang with us now but I told her to go off and have fun with her mate.. anyway.. leaving her after that hug was so heartbreaking. Such a lonely walk back to my campsite even though I was surrounded by thousands and thousands of people!! So we had finally met up since we had broken up. It had to be done. Now since then she has rang me twice and I have not picked up the phone. I owed her 150 quid for the festival ticket (she had bought this for me before we broke up) and I put it into her account this week. I just sent a simple message.. "150 euros put into you account" . Shes sent back a message.. How are you? etc I have tried to ring but maybe you dont want to talk to me? I think I will leave it at that. I am kind of lucky I suppose. I get lots of attention from girls.. actually i have had a ridiculous amount of passes made at me since we broke up. . But Im not that sort of guy if you know what I mean. I havent been with anyone else yet. I only even wanted to really love one girl but I suppose I should face upto the fact that there are more out there. I dunno. I just dont want to hurt someone elses feelings now. Girls fall for me.. i have to be freaking carefull with their feelings too. So I think NC is starting naturally for me.. its gonna be hard not answering her calls I dunno..but its the best policy in this situation? She was infatuated with me... everyone is so shocked that we broke up..... Sometimes I just think that shes doing this because shes unsure of MY love but I think its time for me to let go? If it was meant to be it was meant to be... but at the same time I dunno. If she really doesnt love me anymore then *technically* all I have to do is make her fall in love with me again... now thats sound hard, but you guys dont know me!! I am superhuman!!! I could do it without calling her, texting her, pressurising or speaking to her. All i need is a year by myself and for here to see me again in 12 months time. Sound strange, but after that gig I realised what she really loved about me (something ironically i had given up on because I though i had to to make a financial future for ourselves).. I dunno. Interesting times!
nowhereman82 Posted September 19, 2008 Posted September 19, 2008 Sounds like you got your closure in a way. Hang strong!
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