Jay34 Posted September 19, 2008 Posted September 19, 2008 basically me and my girlfriend who are far away but will be close soon, in distance at least, we broke up because i didn't see her in 10 month's and i had the opportunity too and she wound up kissing another guy, and some other stuff where she wasn't calling and making excuses not to talk, anyway we got back together and have been communicating via phone and im for the past 2-2.5 weeks, today we had our first real deep conversation, even though i have done nothing wrong i assured her that i wasn't going to let her down, i don't know why it just came out, at the time of the call she said she thought i might but tonight she said actually i was thinking about it and you are the person i think would never let me down, she said she would be the one letting someone down, this is all in reference to trust, and she said something telling she said she felt i would always be there for her unless she did something stupid. then said she has been so up and down and the mistakes she made but that she never wants to repeat them. then basically saying in her eyes she has every right to trust me but i don't to trust her. i think deep down she doesn't think i have forgiven her but i have. then she said she knew what she had to do was be there for her whenever i need her and keep herself in check. i don't really know how to take this, in some way i don't really feel like she trusts herself 100% at least not yet, and that scares me, but the fact is im taking it as a light visit we are just there to have fun, but i don't feel the love connection from her as much, she had an ex that cheated on her and she never forgave him, part of the reason why she dumped him but the fact is i do trust her and even though she let me down i don't think she would do it again. this has been confusing me for awhile because she is still distant and i want her to let her guard down, the one thing i didnt like is she thinks i'll always be there which i always have been but its not true because if anything was to ever happen again i'd be gone, i want to see actions though, not talk. , i mean it is good that she can completely depend on me but the fact that she says that i will always be there could make me a doormat and i felt like in some situations i have been lately, i dont know how to take this really, its left me kinda confused but for some reason i am happy in a way but dont feel like a man that she said that, she fell in love with the guy that wasnt always there that wasnt always willing to make her happy just to do it, does anyone have any or does anyone understand exactly what this means or has been in a similiar situation, one thing i don't see how she is fully in love if in some way i think she doesn't trust herself 100% THanks
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