used2bspunky Posted September 17, 2008 Posted September 17, 2008 the most painful part about this whole thing.. When we started dating (after his wife left him), he went for a lot of walks to clear his head.. He often spoke to his grandmother (who raised him and passed away 15 years ago).. He told me he asked her to give him a sign, about me.. Because he was feeling things.. And to let him know that I am ok.. That we will be ok because he didn't want to be hurt again. Then as he got to clearing at the end of the path, he said there was the biggest rainbow up in the sky. He was tearing up when he told me this, so I have to believe him. But that is the one thing that kept me going with him all these months… Then he decides we need time to heal, from our divorces - alone. Again, I'm leaving it all behind me with the good thoughts in my back pocket and taking them with me. He did care about me, I know it. Probably still does.. but I need to let him go. Knowing that I was really good to him as well, makes me feel better. If anything, maybe he will feel some guilt or sadness down the road. Who knows.
HopeDiesLast Posted September 17, 2008 Posted September 17, 2008 i understand Used2be.....god, do i understand.
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