Need to vent-thoughts of a crazy woman

[HopeDiesLast]

Why doesnt the ex want to compromise?

Why doesnt he want to try to make it work?

Why can't i be more of a priority?

Why isnt he willing?

Why doesnt he want to?

How the **** do you go from wanting to marry someone to not wanting them in your life?

I get it feelings and needs change....but what the hell???

Couldnt he have told me about it?

Don't you love me as much as you said you did?

Don't you want to try to fix things?

I AM SO PISSED OFF I CANT EVEN PUT IT INTO WORDS.

 

I NEED A PUNCHING BAG AND GLOVES, MAN.

[HopeDiesLast]

I'm about to go real new york on his ass. real, italian new yorker on his ass.

[ahhhchooo]

I AM SO PISSED OFF I CANT EVEN PUT IT INTO WORDS.

 

I NEED A PUNCHING BAG AND GLOVES, MAN.

Get a punching bag and some gloves then, it's GREAT exercise Even better, join a boxing fitness gym class. They are terrific and full of great people.

 

Release that frustration into something postive!

[badnewsbeers]

Well, speaking from a guy's perspective as somebody towards whom those questions were direction, my honest answer is that yes I loved my ex deeply, but I just wasn't ready for that kind of a commitment. I'm 22, but I don't feel I've experienced enough of life yet to make a decision that serious. I love and care very much for my ex, and I made the decision to leave because I couldn't give her what she wanted (and she's since moved on and found that). She (and you) deserve to be with someone who can provide that, and me (and probably your ex) can't do that.

 

I hope that's somewhat helpful!

[HopeDiesLast]

badnewsbeeers- yeah that makes sense. and i know thats part of it. but its so frustrating to think someone who loved you soooo much just all of a sudden cant anymore. or that the love grew for me...and didnt for him. its not fair.

[JooLee]

a friend told me something that helped:

 

"realizing ultimately the ppl you care about are still gonna decide what they want for themselves in life"

 

basically its just that.

[HopeDiesLast]

yup....joolee u are correct. not fair.

[sedgwick]

I don't know if it helps you, but I've wondered all this too. It's hard to make peace with the fact that you may never find an answer, but I'm trying. Hugs to you from another New Yorker.

 

Oh and bunnies too. You sound like you need bunnies.:bunny:

[HopeDiesLast]

hahaha thanks sedgwick, i heart bunnies

and yes, me and the shrink have decided the unknown is what my issue is. unknown answers, unknown future....i have issues with that. im trying to work on it all tho.

thank you

[selena_cat]

I'm about to go real new york on his ass. real, italian new yorker on his ass.

 

from a fellow New Yorker who will make it back home one day

Go New York on him and make him an offer he cant refuse!

i was thinking not to stereotype all Italians,who are well known for their Art,Architechture,Opera and cuisine. but I doubt

guys who date mafia princesses would treat them like crap if they know whats good for them, really

but like you said in my post,he's a JERK

Jerks dont care whom they hurt,its ego trip for them to walk away,but funny someone will walk away from them one day,you'll see.

[HopeDiesLast]

oh i already ripped into him selena cat. i told him to f*ck off, we werent gonna be friends. that i dont know who he pretended to be for 2 yrs, but if this was the real him that he did me a favor breaking up wtih me. that if his values were on drinking and drugs with those idiots, then he can take his f*cked up mentality and go share it with her. and he can do me another favor by losing my number and never mentioning me again. he always made me second best and im better than that sh*t.

 

i regreted it for a while after i text him that, but now i just dont care. if someone loves oyu and is really confused, but realizes they made a mistake...they'd move mountains to get you back. so far....havent seen any action from him.

 

btw- is your first name cat? cus mine is