Peter_pan Posted September 12, 2008 Posted September 12, 2008 to sum it up, i feel bad that me and my ex (first gf of a 3 yr relationship) each others first etc, do not talk or contact at all. its been 7 ish months. just had a bad dream..well it was that she wanted me back and i was really bitter to her and resented her. back at xmas when we split she basically said it wasnt what she wanted anymore, she is sorry. she has changed. and she was seeing someone new "but it was nothing serious". and im not blaming her entirely for the break up. i was under alot of un needed stress and resulted in ocd and that drove me and her mad at times. i think we where both to young to be living with each other in all honesty. as far as i know that lasted 5 months. i just dont know what to do. on some level i miss her, i miss my past. yeh thats really sad i know, and recently i had met someone new that i liked but that has fizzled out now due to certain factors out of my control, and yes that is making my ex seem even better edit again >> was on my best mates face book and saw she had posted comments on his page something about a law degree that will take her 5 years but is worth it blah blah. saw her photo and it was her kissing what looks like the guy she moved onto from me. felt my heart skip a beat at first but now i dont know how i really feel. feel sad in a way and slightly lost ? i dont want her back anymore. i wish i never had anything to do with her, i hope she gets heartbroken worse than me.
Rafa Posted September 12, 2008 Posted September 12, 2008 Hey Peter_pan, I feel you. It's only been a couple of weeks for me, at least you are 7 months down the track! One thing I would say, Facebook is making breaking up and NC harder than ever for young people these days. Maybe try not to login to Facebook if it brings you down. Good luck, we're here for you.
Author Peter_pan Posted September 12, 2008 Author Posted September 12, 2008 cheers matey. yeh it life i guess. what can you do. i hope you come to peace aswell. or better yet finding someone better i kinda resent her somewhat. feel like i should have shouted at her or something. i didnt give her any crap about it. or him. i dont know, just seems weird that she is with him!! i bet she is living with him now. if i could pay to stop thinking of her or to erase memories of my past i would be first in line. i do wish i never had anything to do with her on a serious long term relationship. i feel back stabbed i knew if i looked on his profile i would come across her. just knew it. i really want to hurt her lol. sounds f ed up dont it. and now if im honest i am sat here thinking where did it all go wrong? why wasnt i good enough. rejection is ****e
movingonandon Posted September 12, 2008 Posted September 12, 2008 cheers matey. yeh it life i guess. what can you do. i hope you come to peace aswell. or better yet finding someone better i kinda resent her somewhat. feel like i should have shouted at her or something. i didnt give her any crap about it. or him. i dont know, just seems weird that she is with him!! i bet she is living with him now. if i could pay to stop thinking of her or to erase memories of my past i would be first in line. i do wish i never had anything to do with her on a serious long term relationship. i feel back stabbed i knew if i looked on his profile i would come across her. just knew it. i really want to hurt her lol. sounds f ed up dont it. and now if im honest i am sat here thinking where did it all go wrong? why wasnt i good enough. rejection is ****e really, the only feasible way to hurt her is to move on, be happy, and NOT initiate or respond to ANY contact; anything other than that will feed her self-righteousness
Author Peter_pan Posted September 12, 2008 Author Posted September 12, 2008 yeah, well i dont think im attracted to her now. physically and who she is emotionally. she was always boring to be honest. we didnt match as well as we'd hoped. just its odd seeing his face and her kissing his cheek just like she once did to me, i almost have an exact photo only with me in it.
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