holly86 Posted September 11, 2008 Posted September 11, 2008 I don't know what to do? I've been in so many rs before and I've NEVER felt like this before! I've dated guys for years....been madly in love before...but never have I ever been this upset about a break up! I know how upset I've been in the past about break ups; whether it was me breaking up with a guy or him dumping me. This is by FAR the worst one. My heart is in a million pieces and I don't know how to put it back together!? I keep seeing, hearing, meeting people that know him! We live about an hour away from each other and almost every new person that I've met has some kind of tie to him! My best friend that I met a few days after our break up...even she has a connection to him. Her current ex is now going to the same college and is in all the same classes as my ex. They are friends! They both started grad school there this semester and have the same major! What are the chances? They too met a few days after me and him broke up. It just seems that everywhere I look...there is a sign! The car that he likes is soooo rare and only a few people so far own it (price and availability) and guess what? I see one about every day (now never before)! And its not that he's never pointed it out to me so it's not that I haven't been looking for one before! People that request songs on the radio are (all of the sudden) from HIS hometown over an hour away....wtf? He is like a shadow that has been following me for a month now! Though he is not contacting me! He is the one who broke it off so I don't want to look needy and what not and call or txt him but why not call me? He just acts like he has not missed me since he dumped me? We both were each others love of our lifes...so now he doesn't care? Is he going to call or is it done forever? If it's really over then what are the random signs? Does anyone believe in signs? I feel sick to my stomach again! I thought I could move on but I simply can't...something is holding me back. And trust me its not the false hope that is doing that....it's all the stupid little signs! That has never happened to me before. What do I do now? How do I stop this misery?
sacg Posted September 11, 2008 Posted September 11, 2008 I feel for you, I really do. Its been nearly 3 months for me and im still in bits. most of that is down to me holding on and having hope though. only to have it dashed very recently by the fact she's moving on with another man. I am in bits, i feel pathetic and i really can't believe it. I dont know what to say to you other than hang in there, it does get easier, its easier for me now than it was a few weeks ago, but i have the fresh knowledge that she's now moving on with him. i would def stay NC, if he wants you he'll call. There's no point in going through what I have only to set you back, and boy, it really does. I just want to be angry and hate her, but I now i contributed to this demise, so its even harder. I feel lost at the moment.
Author holly86 Posted September 11, 2008 Author Posted September 11, 2008 I've been trying so hard to move on! I've been out with friends EVERY weekend! It's fun and all but for some reason I still wake up crying every morning. I have dreams of us getting back together and when I wake up I realize that in fact it was just a dream. Like I said there have been too many signs too. One of my good friends just moved back with her parents and she literally now lives 2 blocks away from where my ex does (bout an hour away from me)! I've known this girl for over a year and she just NOW moved back there! What are the odds? Why is all of this happening? And how do I make it stop? I kissed a guy not too long ago and omg...i've felt guilty ever since! Why? I want to make it stop! Everything reminds me of him! I'm having a tough time while he seems to be doing just fine!
Author holly86 Posted September 16, 2008 Author Posted September 16, 2008 WHAT THE F***??? So it's been a little over a month and I'm back to square one! He just changed a few things on his facebook and I'm pretty sure that he's with someone else! I've heard it from a few people before but since him and the girl never were friends on facebook I didn't think much of it. It's for real...I'm pretty sure! We've been broken up for a month and 5 days and he has already moved on? What happened to the 'I love you...I really do'? Does he NOT care about me anymore or is it just a rebound chick? I broke down and called him but he didn't answer. I sent him a text asking why he didn't answer my call...he didn't answer. I'm so devastated right now. It feels like he just ripped out my heart and stepped on it. We had a talk bout a month ago and he told me he is NOT going to go out and try and date anyone else because he just wants to be single...now that? Please help me! I need a friend on here to tell me whats going on...! I can't stop crying. It hurts more than it ever did after the break up. I feel betrayed all over again! I know though that he has NOT been seeing or talking to her while we were together...he met her a week or two later because they go to the same school now and she lives WAY closer to him than I do. HELP!
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