StevenP Posted September 8, 2008 Posted September 8, 2008 Basically, she broke up with me because I wasn't treating her right. Don't get me wrong, we had a good relationship, but I started acting like a jerk. Also, she didn't really want to break up with me until our last fight where I said stuff I shouldn't have. I broke up with her that night, but things wouldn't mend back. She was clingy to wards me, and I thought she'd never leave. So I never put effort in to changing... I took the relationship for granted, and now I'm suffering the loss of my first first love... My first long term relationship. She also confused me after the break up by calling me everyday, crying, etc... We hooked up (sexually) a few times, and still had many romantic evenings. We were still close after the break up, but she still didn't want a relationship again. Anyways, it's been over two months since then and it hasn't been the same ... She's changed a lot, and has been seeing some guy (she even hopes they work out)... We barely talk. She started hanging out with the party crowd and all, and I don't think she misses me anymore.. I started doing NC, and it has really helped me move on.. It just hurts to see her move on from me so quickly... Honestly during the relationship I stopped loving her and debated breaking up, but I stayed and fell for her again.... I was her first love too... And I want to be away from her as much as possible just so one day I could get to know her again and hopefully we can fall back in love, is that possible? I'll move on anyways and get on with my life, but one day I would like to have that again.. I'm aware she might not ever have feelings for me, but I would like to get on anyways. I just had my hopes up for a while... It really is a long way down when your hopes are high. We were too close, super comfortable with each other. This thing is, for a while after the break up she wanted to get back together, I just really screwed up and gave her the chance to drift away. We're young (17), but what we had was real and we were together for over a year. (I know, still short, but it was long for us). I know this whole thread is hard to follow, but there is a lot on my mind about this subject. When I heard about her and the other guy it stung, but didn't bother me for over two days.. I know I'm moving on, but I'll always hope for her back. How about your first loves? How did you cope?
JooLee Posted September 9, 2008 Posted September 9, 2008 my first love was so sweet,caring and loving that he remains the best among the guys ive been with (2 after him). we had to end the relationship because he was leaving to another country. to this day we are still good friends and occasionally keep in touch.i always have a smile when i think of him. i hope nothing but the best for him and to be happy always. i would even rejoice in happiness if i hear he's getting married. i guess i could move on and cope easily because i truly just wanted him to be happy and we broke it off in a mature way and good understanding. He definitely holds a special place in my heart forever. this was 4 years ago and to this day i still think about him almost everyday.
Author StevenP Posted September 10, 2008 Author Posted September 10, 2008 Well, the whole relationship was a great lesson. And right now that's what I'm treating it as - A painful course haha. Anyone else have some good first love stories?
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