tealeafbud Posted September 8, 2008 Posted September 8, 2008 Not sure that feeling sad is a setback or what, but after checking her myspace, she stated that she was an aunt. It's significant to me because we learned her sis was pregnant the day before I left her. It just makes me sad because I have retained some feelings of guilt and feelings of remorse even though I shouldn't any longer. And her sister having the kid just brought some old feelings back. I know that I'm pretty much over her, errrrr...was over her, but I still have times when I can't stand the hurt. And when I think about the new joy into their family, and what could have been, i get sad. Although, I also feel that I'm so far beyond anything I even could have hoped since leaving her in a good way. Background story: i left my ex fiance almost 8 months ago and have been NC for 40 days and 40 nights. We had communicated shortly after I left her and tried the friends thing. It didn't work because she'd share her drama with me that I didn't feel comfortable with and having talked since. I know that we've dragged it out longer than was anticipated, but we're only human.
LikeCharlotte Posted September 8, 2008 Posted September 8, 2008 Hello TLB, I'm not going to say that you shouldn't look at myspace because I know you can't stop. I will say that what you are feeling is normal. I suggest spending some time with family rugrats and enjoy the ones that you will be involved with. It can be hard to get used to missing milestones in the life of someone you were so close to but you tried to stay in her life as a friend and she really didn't respect the new relatioship. You made the right decision but it is nice to hear that you are happy for her family still - even if it means you haven't fully let go yet.
Author tealeafbud Posted September 8, 2008 Author Posted September 8, 2008 Thanks charlotte for those encouraging words.
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