gummybear Posted September 8, 2008 Posted September 8, 2008 A week ago I told my ex over the phone that there is a slim to none chance of us getting back together (we broke up mainly because I don't want to do LDR) and I told him that after we broke up I activated my online dating account again and I'm actively looking for someone on that site. I told him that he'd be better off with someone else and that there are so many other girls out there. I also told him he’d be better off avoiding me as well. We basically ended the phone call saying that this would be the last time we’d ever hear/see/talk to each other. 2 days later, he blocked me from IM and he himself activated his online dating account as well. I know I shouldn’t, but everyday I look at his activated account and it hurts. Every once in awhile I go to see if he still blocked me from IM and when I see that I’m still blocked, it stings. Today I checked his dating profile and noticed he updated his pics and ofcourse it hurt me to see that he is so active on the site. In comparison to other people on the site, he is by far so much better. He has such a cute smile. I miss him. I went to an amusement park today and the whole time I keep thinking how much more fun it would be if he were with me. But then I remind myself that the right thing to do is often the hardest. As much as it pained me to tell him he’d be better off with someone else, it’s true. Even if it hurts to see him with someone else one day, I will have no regrets. It hurts for now, but with time it will pass.
Jilly Bean Posted September 8, 2008 Posted September 8, 2008 Yep, yep. I just went through the same thing with Baller. He wanted us to be LDR, and I wanted no part of it. I saw him on TV today. Just seeing his fat a** on the football field was painful. I think because it made me think how I used to able to just pick up the phone and talk to him if I wanted to, and now, there is nothing but numbness and sadness left. It goes get better, Gummy...
Author gummybear Posted September 8, 2008 Author Posted September 8, 2008 Yep, yep. I just went through the same thing with Baller. He wanted us to be LDR, and I wanted no part of it. I saw him on TV today. Just seeing his fat a** on the football field was painful. I think because it made me think how I used to able to just pick up the phone and talk to him if I wanted to, and now, there is nothing but numbness and sadness left. It goes get better, Gummy... I don't think I've read your threads on Baller before but the reason(s) you broke up with him seem very similar to mine. I didn't break up with him because I loss feelings for him or anything, which is what makes it hard. It seems it is the same case with you. I know what you mean about not being able to pick up the phone and just call him. I wish I can hear his voice again but every time I do I just keep reminding myself that it will bring nothing more than additional pain if I do. I really should stop stalking him on IM and on the dating site probably haha.
Lucky555 Posted September 8, 2008 Posted September 8, 2008 But then I remind myself that the right thing to do is often the hardest. As much as it pained me to tell him he’d be better off with someone else, it’s true. Even if it hurts to see him with someone else one day, I will have no regrets. It hurts for now, but with time it will pass. You sound like myself..thats what i keep saying and its been getting better. time is the best thing. You need to be with someone who can appreciate you and it does hurt especially when you get close to them and then part. Keep your heart open but be wise.
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