carrie3107 Posted September 5, 2008 Posted September 5, 2008 After 6 months from our initial break, we have been in contact and seen each other every 3 - 4 weeks. We both have done the no contact bit and then one of us will initiate contact again. He texted me over the weekend saying he was bored at work etc and hoped i was ok xx . I didnt reply straight away then about a couple of hours he phones me saying why havent you answered. I replied "What text" (When i send him texts or phone him he says that he never gets them, so played the same game on him that he has been playing on me) We had a chat nothing major, but to me the chat didnt flow easy and was mainly based on him. (Id been to a VIP at a Football match on Saturday and found myself mixing with total strangers and the conversation flowed easy). He texted me on Monday night saying that he was bored and redtube was boring (Porn site) any suggestions??? I didnt respond to him. I think what im saying is that there comes a time when you think to yourself i've done enough of this, being there for him, and reasured him that he was good enough for me and were has it got me... I've excepted that he was part of my life and will always have the memories about the way we were (ever good or bad) but thats all they are now are memories and memories cant hurt me anymore. Time to put down the Catherine Cookson book and pick up the Mills & Boons again!!!!
sultry33 Posted September 5, 2008 Posted September 5, 2008 After 6 months from our initial break, we have been in contact and seen each other every 3 - 4 weeks. We both have done the no contact bit and then one of us will initiate contact again. He texted me over the weekend saying he was bored at work etc and hoped i was ok xx . I didnt reply straight away then about a couple of hours he phones me saying why havent you answered. I replied "What text" (When i send him texts or phone him he says that he never gets them, so played the same game on him that he has been playing on me) We had a chat nothing major, but to me the chat didnt flow easy and was mainly based on him. (Id been to a VIP at a Football match on Saturday and found myself mixing with total strangers and the conversation flowed easy). He texted me on Monday night saying that he was bored and redtube was boring (Porn site) any suggestions??? I didnt respond to him. I think what im saying is that there comes a time when you think to yourself i've done enough of this, being there for him, and reasured him that he was good enough for me and were has it got me... I've excepted that he was part of my life and will always have the memories about the way we were (ever good or bad) but thats all they are now are memories and memories cant hurt me anymore. Time to put down the Catherine Cookson book and pick up the Mills & Boons again!!!! hi carrie, i suggest getting out instead of reading them books .. so are you saying its over for you? join me im done too and actually although im upset that he is lossley interested in another i have had enough o the chase.. trying do/say the right thing im ready to let him go as im not getting anything out of this except pain. i want to feel wanted needed and be someone priority not just put up with this crap.. im out tonight living my life and for the 1st time in months im not going worry that what i do/dont do will effect how he thinks about me.. hugs to you x:love:
Author carrie3107 Posted September 5, 2008 Author Posted September 5, 2008 I guess i am saying its over for me. When i say putting down the catherine cookson and picking up the mills and boons its an example. Cause with most cookson books you read the woman is the one struggling to keep it together, and going through rough times. Were as the mills and boons you get the love and romance. I would like the love and romance, dont know if ill find it but its what i would like. Im not in pain, just have the memories. All during this time ive made sure that ive been going out and about and enrolled at college on Wednesday. But there is also a time that you need to sit and relax and chill out (but not become depressed) if the memories of an ex come i just remember that as soon as they come they will go, cause they dont hurt me no more they just remind me that next time to handle the situation different. Hugs to u Sultry x x
CaliGuy Posted September 5, 2008 Posted September 5, 2008 Bored and watching "redtube"?? Umm yeah, that's a red flag right there Carrie.
sultry33 Posted September 6, 2008 Posted September 6, 2008 Bored and watching "redtube"?? Umm yeah, that's a red flag right there Carrie. lol ive watched red tube.. how is that a red flag? is it because he said that.. ie i want real thing as red tube not doing it for me?
Author carrie3107 Posted September 8, 2008 Author Posted September 8, 2008 Im guessing so. He hasnt bothered texting me since last monday, but being firm with myself and havent texted him. Was a bit down on Saturday night, things didnt go according to plan on Satuday night. ( I even wore a little skirt and i mean little) felt like putting my toe back in the water
dropdeadlegs Posted September 8, 2008 Posted September 8, 2008 Hang in there. Don't accept less than you deserve. I know it's easier said than done, but true love and partnership is out there and every minute spent pursuing the wrong partner is possibly a minute when the right one might have come along. I was nearly 40 before I found real love, but spent so much time on bad relationships feeling that anything was better than nothing. I was so wrong and should have cut my losses much sooner. If it doesn't feel perfect, let it go. Perfect is out there. I know it is. I've found it.
sultry33 Posted September 8, 2008 Posted September 8, 2008 Im guessing so. He hasnt bothered texting me since last monday, but being firm with myself and havent texted him. Was a bit down on Saturday night, things didnt go according to plan on Satuday night. ( I even wore a little skirt and i mean little) felt like putting my toe back in the water hey carrie, thats great that you have not texted him since before last monday... change it to positve hey i jumped in the water on both nights.. can say that i have not had so much fun in yrs... normally my guard is up out of loyality to him but now im free:laugh: have met few guys that apparently i normally chat to but they was my pole... oh yeah its just fun and thats all im doing instead of stressing about him.. im bein the girl i was an im loving it.. he can have his librairian.. lol ask lishy she seen the pics there is one guy i like alot an soon he will be mine.. well im hoping:love: watch this space just do what your doing carrie.. let himake a move an if not know that there is a life out there... im proof.. you may feel like me in time;) you are doin great girlx
Author carrie3107 Posted September 9, 2008 Author Posted September 9, 2008 Thanks Sultry Going through the shall i call him stage at the mo, but havent done anything. I guess what im looking from him is to treat me as a person and not as a piece of meat, but have realised that the only way he can get me back is if he fought for me but it has been too long now. Glad to hear that you've tested the water hun xx
sultry33 Posted September 9, 2008 Posted September 9, 2008 Thanks Sultry Going through the shall i call him stage at the mo, but havent done anything. I guess what im looking from him is to treat me as a person and not as a piece of meat, but have realised that the only way he can get me back is if he fought for me but it has been too long now. Glad to hear that you've tested the water hun xx yea im with you on that feeling... today i wake an feel like i been a biatch... i asked for honesty he gave it to me then i say,get lost:sick: i feel bad about that.. why i dont know i mean i feel like i was a peice of meat now.. i want him to be happy but its damn hard.. that it involves someone else.. im not going contact him and he has not replied to my last message so its done. i hope we both meet someone worthy of our time soon.. its a shame we dont live closer we could rock your town:laugh: wish i could wake up an feel better..im just not great yet.. up an down i guess is good answer. he dont deserve me as your ex dont deserve you.. have you tried plenty of fish? its a distraction for me x
Author carrie3107 Posted September 9, 2008 Author Posted September 9, 2008 Yeah have the same feelings, but havent done the cow with him. Guess im thinking to myself well ive done what i can let him have space, been there for him when he was feeling down (he has done the same with me) but it has gotten both of us nowhere. I wake up feeling ok, then within 10 mins my mind is thinking about him. Guess thats the way it is. How can it be even after this amount of time im still up and down. Guess its because we have both been in contact with each other. Even though we have been getting on with our lifes as singles. The fish aint bitting, had a few nibbles (an offer of a threesome (but not going down that road)) maybe i should come down to yours to rock the town and put out the bait. lol
sultry33 Posted September 9, 2008 Posted September 9, 2008 Yeah have the same feelings, but havent done the cow with him. Guess im thinking to myself well ive done what i can let him have space, been there for him when he was feeling down (he has done the same with me) but it has gotten both of us nowhere. I wake up feeling ok, then within 10 mins my mind is thinking about him. Guess thats the way it is. How can it be even after this amount of time im still up and down. Guess its because we have both been in contact with each other. Even though we have been getting on with our lifes as singles. The fish aint bitting, had a few nibbles (an offer of a threesome (but not going down that road)) maybe i should come down to yours to rock the town and put out the bait. lol hey i had that offer too lol yea come own or up.. forgot where you are lol im a bit pissed at him as i gave him space/time but back fired on me.. im no angel dont get me wrong but damn i was hopin we could have sorted things out down the line.. but now there is noway back for me.. he said he would never treat me bad use me or i be fwb but i was just that:mad: he can have his cake but he is not getting mine again. need to focus on somethig else as im sure he is not thinking about me.. you be ok carrie you know what you want and its more than your getting x
Author carrie3107 Posted September 10, 2008 Author Posted September 10, 2008 Got a phone call from my mum yesturday saying that she was having to go into hospital as the doctors didnt know what was wrong with her stomach. After 4 hours of waiting and a couple of phone calls to my friends asking advice on weither i should phone the hospital or not we found out that she had too much water in her bladder and was spending the night in hospital. (fluid getting drained) and doing tests this morning. My gut feeling is to text the ex and tell him, but i havent. When your happy you want to tell them that your happy, when your in a sad mood you want to tell them, when your plodding along you dont want anything to do with them. Im guessing that at one time or another they were there for you when you were happy or had a problem and could turn to them for advice weither you took that advice or not was upto you.
sultry33 Posted September 10, 2008 Posted September 10, 2008 hi carrie i hope your mum feels well soon x
Author carrie3107 Posted September 10, 2008 Author Posted September 10, 2008 Shes ok. Still in hospital getting tests. God why do i feel the need to tell the ex
sultry33 Posted September 11, 2008 Posted September 11, 2008 Shes ok. Still in hospital getting tests. God why do i feel the need to tell the ex because once he was important and you would have told him good news bad news.. he dont deserve that anymore.. stay strong and hugs to you x
Author carrie3107 Posted September 11, 2008 Author Posted September 11, 2008 Yeah your right. Unfortnately i did text him telling him. When i was in bed last night it hit me. Its me who is still carrying a tourch for him, and he wants to get on without me.
Author carrie3107 Posted September 17, 2008 Author Posted September 17, 2008 Well after a week of waiting he texts me saying Is your mum ok? I havent responded. 6 missed calls later still havent responded. Have of me wants to text him to say shes ok waiting for the final results tomorrow then they will decide what type of operation shes having. (his mum died through cancer and i know what he want through) The other half doesnt want to text him back cause he hasnt been there for me during this period, and i know what you are going to say that its only been a week and hes been busy but there has been plenty of time before last night that he could have contacted me!!!!
Author carrie3107 Posted September 17, 2008 Author Posted September 17, 2008 I spoke to him. Told him about mum and he said if i needed to talk he would be there for me. I told him i had plenty of mates to talk to. He went ok, then said ive got people waiting to talk to me speak to you soon, i just went bye. I texted him a bit later saying soz if i was sharpe things a bit upside down. Not sure if I can rely on u being their if i need 2 talk. Guess thats up2 u He said he'd be there if i need to talk.
Author carrie3107 Posted September 18, 2008 Author Posted September 18, 2008 I replied later, dont take this the wrong way, but you have said so many different things that havent happened. Meeting up, money etc. That is why im wary of asking you for support. Spent most of the night worrying about my mum. She goes back to hospital today to find out what is going to happen (if operation etc), on top of this i had the ex on my mind.
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