ate_the_paint Posted September 4, 2008 Posted September 4, 2008 I haven't actually been on here in a while. I have no excuses. I was doing okay for the past couple of months. Saw my ex a bunch and decided I didn't want her back anyways, so it didn't matter. Casually dated a couple of girls. Got my life and career back on track. Was making new friends and enjoying my independence. I've been lonely, for sure. It's the loneliness that comes from being single, especially after you know what it's like to be committed. But I've been forcing myself to keep my head up and stay positive. Then I heard a song today. It was a sad song that I listened to during the painful breakup, and throughout the day my emotions plummeted back to those horrible days five months ago. Now I'm listening to a lost playlist on my ipod that I had made back then, and I don't know why I'm doing to this myself. It's making me so sad. I don't think it's my ex that I miss, but perhaps the comfort of my life then. Maybe it's just rehashing all that pain that is making me sad. I don't know. This sucks. I could easily switch the playlist, but for some reason I feel like punishing myself. I guess this is just a reminder that after five months the pain wasn't gone; it was simply buried. So now I'm doing what I did five months ago. I'm listening to sad music and reading other people's posts about their heartache. Talk about a glutton for punishment.
BCCA Posted September 4, 2008 Posted September 4, 2008 I think we've all done that. It's almost like you'll take the agony of it for a reminder of your ex. You need to get rid of everything that reminds you of her as long as it has this effect on you. Delete the playlist, and just try avoiding anything that reminds you of her. After a while, the attachments start to fade. All I can say is that I feel for you. But dont be on here doing the same thing tomorrow. Take yourself to the bar, or a buddies house, bowling alley, etc... I can tell you that for me, getting out was probably the best thing I could've done. Make yourself talk to pretty girls, even if the give you the cold shoulder. Dont dwell on this too much, you'll get through it. Dont torture yourself anymore, though.
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