Deja vu

[serendip]

So I've been doing really well. The summer has been great...lots of activities and events going on.

 

So I come back from a 4 day canoe trip which was awesome and I'm just thinking to myself...this will be the first month(August) the ex hasn't contacted me(she contacts me once every month) since it's Sept 1st already.

 

So I'm driving along and I turn my phone back on since there is no reception where I was...and boom

 

I this text from the ex sent on August 31

 

Hey serendip im in (your town) now

how r yu doing

 

So I guess she didn't miss a month after all. Every month she seems to ask me how I'm doing even if I don't respond for months. But now she's tells me she's in my town visiting but not saying anything else...just like what she did in March. It doesn't even bother me anymore(it's been over a year) because I'm so use to it now.

 

Here's the story for the past couple of months for people who don't know my story.

 

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/showthread.php?t=159113&highlight=serendip

 

 

Of course I don't think I want to respond...what's the point really.

[BCCA]

I don't know which is worse, the fact that she contacts you, or my situation of getting NOTHING at all from my ex. She's never once called/emailed/texted to see how I was (it's been just over a month since the breakup, but still). Sometimes I just want something, even if I'll just ignore it, to show that she even cared.

 

I guess I can consider myself lucky on some fronts, but still...the fact that some one you spent over 4 years with can just pull out of your life without looking back stings a bit.

[serendip]

It's always the same thing...she never says something of substance...and yet she's really hard up for my attention like the last time she contacted me...waking up at 5am to ask me a silly question when she could have just google it.

 

After a couple of days I do feel guilty about ignoring her...having read so many threads on LS...and how it sucks to be ignored...but then I remind myself that she cheated on me, I forgave her and then she did it again. She never considered my feelings when she cheated and she still can't provide me with an explanation of why she did it(back in March when we spoke). So I don't see the point of prolonging this drama. I know I shouldn't feel guilty about ignoring her b/c I'm not the one prompting her to contact me...I can only control my actions and not hers.

 

I just don't understand why she is bothering with contacting after all this time(more then a year since break up) and especially when I've been trying my best to ignore her when she does contact me.