xpaperxcutx Posted September 1, 2008 Posted September 1, 2008 Today officially marks my 8 month dry spell from sex and dating. Does that make me celibate? Because I don't remember taking a vow on the issue. My time has been preoccupied with classes, running back and forth navigating around campus. I'm surrounded by college guys and gals, I've practically found myself unable to interact with my fellow peers. Although I attract people like flies because of my friendly disposition, I can't bring myself to fully open up to the possibility of dating any new guy. I've to imagine myself on a date; my mind fails to conjure up a pleasant image. Even when I get asked out, I still find myself making up excuses to avoid going out with them. The idea of kissing a guy right now repulses me. For example, this past weekend, I gave up the chance of meeting up with a new friend of mine. It wasn't even a date, more like a social gathering, but I chose instead to stay home and clean. Pretty much all I want to do is be by myself. I wouldn't mind hanging out with my girlfriends though, but mostly I just divide my time between classes and going to the gym. Period. Then there are the occasional outings to parties and clubs. But I won't bring myself to chase after any guys I deem datable. Even flirting seems to take alot of effort now. I'm afraid at the rate things are going, I'll probably give up relationships and dating altogether. Will it make me bitter? Or am I just picky?
paddington bear Posted September 1, 2008 Posted September 1, 2008 It's just a phase, been there myself. One day you will accept an invitation, go out have a blast and wonder why you locked yourself away for so long and then you'll go back to being more solitary for a while then back to being sociable - that's the way it goes for me anyway - just don't let it go on too long though, sounds like you're busy, but maybe also, for some reason a little depressed??
JoeNewbie Posted September 1, 2008 Posted September 1, 2008 Trust me, your mood will change when you meet someone you REALLY like. Nothing to be worried about.
Author xpaperxcutx Posted September 1, 2008 Author Posted September 1, 2008 It's just a phase, been there myself. One day you will accept an invitation, go out have a blast and wonder why you locked yourself away for so long and then you'll go back to being more solitary for a while then back to being sociable - that's the way it goes for me anyway - just don't let it go on too long though, sounds like you're busy, but maybe also, for some reason a little depressed?? I know it's just a phase, but I don't really have a reason for why I feel so indifferent to guys. I've just settled into a routine of going to class and filling the extra time I have with working out. I know working out produces endorphins, so I'm extremely happy when I'm working out, but then when I find myself outside socializing, I really feel like I have to put up a facade everytime just to make it seem like I'm having fun. As for feeling depressed, I was depressed a few months back, but I've been feeling alot better.
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