StevenP Posted August 26, 2008 Posted August 26, 2008 Basically, she broke up with me because I wasn't treating her right. Don't get me wrong, we had a good relationship, but I started acting like a jerk. She was clingy to wards me, and I thought she'd never leave. So I never put effort in to changing... I took the relationship for granted, and now I'm suffering the loss of my first first love... My first long term relationship. So after the break up. We still stayed close... We'd hang out regularly and what not. We would hook up (meaning sexually) frequently... But after the two weeks of doing so she asked if we could stop hooking up because it was stopping her from moving on. Then, I was super confused on if I had a chance with her. So I started avoiding talking to her, but she would still contact me everyday, even though all her friends told me that she doesn't have feelings for me anymore (she told me she wasn't IN LOve anymore)... But then she called me one night after leaving a party to meet me, and so we did. We hung out and it was amazing. We flirted and had a great time and ended up having sex on my sun deck over the stars yada yada yada (this was a month after the break up)... Then she held my hand and put my arm over her and we just laid down looking up at the stars and what not... It was a romantic evening... Then the next night, she calls me again. Only this time we didn't have sex, but as I drove her home, we hugged goodbye... She wouldn't let go, and took off my helmet and kissed me, very passionatly... As she was walking to her door, she ran back and kissed me through my helmet. She later told me that she knew what she wanted but had a hard time adjusting... Anyways, it's been a month since then and it hasn't been like that at all... She's changed a lot, and has been kind of seeing some guy... She's being a total bitch to me, and hasn't really spoken to me. She started hanging out with the party crowd and all, and I don't think she misses me anymore.. I started doing NC 3 days ago, but no luck... I know now she's moved on, and it sucks. I was her first love too... And I want to be away from her as much as possible just so one day I could get to know her again and hopefully we can fall back in love, is that possible? I'll move on anyways and get on with my life, but one day I would like to have that again.. I've moved on, but haven't let go... I've changed, but I know it's all too late... I just had my hopes up for a while... It really is a long way down when your hopes are high.
BCCA Posted August 26, 2008 Posted August 26, 2008 Is it possible? Of course it is, anything is possible, and life takes many unexpected turns. But you would be doing yourself a favor to just on like its not going to happen. I admit to being a little biased on the situation here, but I rarely ever see the second time around go any better than the first. True, there are people who break up all the time and then end up being married for 20 years. It happens. But most relationships dont work out. Take this time to think about yourself and what you want from life. I know it sounds cheesy, but keeping a journal can help.
Arise_Serpentor Posted August 26, 2008 Posted August 26, 2008 Well, it sounds like you are doing good! honest! sounds like you had more a vent than a question! Keep moving forward! Everyone has gone through what you are!
sedgwick Posted August 27, 2008 Posted August 27, 2008 How old are you? It sounds like you're both very young. If that's the case, I can promise you you'll love again, really and truly.
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